A Nice Song

This song is just what I need! My other self, lol. Listen to it guys...

Wan Mei Bi Li, by Rainie Yang

wan mei bi li
gang kan wan dian ying
you yue wo kan ye jing
dong ji hen xian ming yao zhu yi
ni bie po huai ni wo de wan mei bi li
feng jing mei li
wo que xin tiao bu ting
jiu pa bei ni kan qing
jia zhuang zhen ding
tou tou di shen hu xi
xiao rong jian ding
xiao jiu wo hen qiang xi
ni xi yin li wu di
nong nong de ai qing
du qi zhi jie tao xin wo kuai tou yun
gan kuai qing xing ba gan kuai qing xing
bie rang wo
yue guo ai qing jin qu

tian mi de ai qing
shi gao ka lu li
xiang ge qiao ke li
you bu gan tai kao jin
hu yuan you hu jin
wei chi mo hu guan xi
er xian zai de ju li
shi wan mei de bi li

ni dui zhe wo xiao
wo lian hong dao bu ting
pa bei kan qing wo zhuang zhen ding
tou tou zai zuo shen hu xi
xiao rong jian ding
wei wo pi shang da yi
mei li wu di
zhi ming xi yin
wo kuai yao tou yun
gan kuai qing xing ba gan kuai qing xing
bie rang wo
hai xin shen bu yu

ni yi yan yi yu
wo lao ji zai xin
man nao dou shi ni
que zhuang zuo bu zai yi
ni zhuo mo bu qing
you qing hai shi ai qing
zhe mo hu de ju li
shi wan mei de bi li

shi jie shang zui yuan de ju li
zai ni mian qian que bu dong wo de xin
shi jie shang zui mei de ju li
cong wo zhang xin dao ni zhang xin

tian mi de ai qing
shi gao ka lu li
xiang ge qiao ke li
you bu gan tai kao jin
hu yuan you hu jin
wei chi mo hu guan xi
er xian zai de ju li
shi wan mei de bi li

ni yi yan yi yu
wo lao ji zai xin
man nao dou shi ni
que zhuang zuo bu zai yi
ni zhuo mo bu qing
you qing hai shi ai qing
zhe mo hu de ju li
shi wan mei de bi li

wan mei de bi li

Tzi Han

I dedicate this post to my pet hamster that just passed away. Now Tzi Wei is left alone in the cage. 

Did a personality test..

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Life itself

I bet most of us are trying to discover who we realy are in life and continue to ask ourself these questions. Who am I? What am I good at? Where are my talents? What must I do? Yadda x2

Well the answer is definitely not Spiderman =P. Everyone is lost for a reason, and thats the reason why we live.

"All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players: They have their exits and their entrances.." wrote William Shakespeare.

A reknown genius of his own time. Shakespeare saw the world as a stage, where everyone merely acts and what impact they have on life is just their time on stage. This is true to an extend where what memories we leave behind when we are gone ,  is what we do when we are still alive. But what actions matters and what doesn't, what profound talents of act that we are suppose to do in life? We are our own scriptwriter of life. What do we want, we just act it own. In this way, it goes againts the belief of fate. What is fated and what is not?

Sometimes I just wonder, what is the truth and what is a lie. Religions are there for a reason. Is it to guide people back to the spiritual world known as heaven or better known as Basic Instruction Before Leaving Earth (BIBLE)? Where do we go after Earth? Somethings are just not known and therefore we live by faith. Believing in what we do not see, hear, feel or detected by any of our senses. Blind faith, yeah thats what we call it. Mankind is special in its own way, we live, create, multiply just like a virus, we alter nature to fit our demands ; destroying it in the process. I think I am slowly becoming an Atheist in a way. Things just don't matter to me anymore.

Questions and questions kept coming to me. And endless stream of it. Deciphering life isn't an easy task. It requires a whole lot of determination, time from the mind and soul, peserverance from the heart.

Going back to my alma matter, things isn't much different from where it used to be after all. I have 'friends', who are close to me just for their own benefit. Just because I used to be smart in primary school, everyone wants to know me. In highschool, these cycle of friends continues, they are only close to me so that they can ask for my help. Projects, assignment, research, computer problems... You name it! I seem to be the repairmen for them. College ain't that different after all. I'm trying hard to find out if the friends I have now is sincere or not. Thought most of them aren't and the one I'm considering might not be in the future. Time can only tell and experience shape us into who we are suppose to be.

Which brings us back this matter, who we are? Are we a servant of GOD? Are we just an puppets of life? Are we an organism that lives to harmonize with the ecosystem? What role do we play in this world? If everything is fated, then whats the point of living if everything is planned for us? Is there free will in this world? Does freedom and cause collides with each other? This is where Karma comes in, do good and you will yield good. Commit evil and you shall receive the judgement later on. But to what extend does this valid? You see evil people around everywhere, and they are on the top, living an exclusive live wherelse the good people remain poor. People used to say, it ain't time yet. But till when do we wait? When does this torment end?

In my opinion, its just human making excuse. We make excuse for things which we can'e explain.

And in life, we shouldn't make excuse. For every cause there must be a reason behind it. We live by our actions, and whether the end result is good or bad, we will accept it wholeheartedly.

Probably things are never define, and its best left that way. But being human, its in our nature to be curious. Curiousity kills the cat but well, human don't realy care. This is what makes us creative human beings, we think outside the box.

So what is life, what are our purpose of living, who are we and what must we do? I believe everyone is asking the same thing and some might be contend with the answers they have already. But there is this itch, this feeling of doubt that exist no matter what. 

When we are at a cliff and we are afraid to jump, there is always a little voice asking you to jump. Is it realy the urge to jump, or the urge to fall? 

The last thing an angel would experience it fall itself. Before damnation. So what are we exactly?

Unusual Family Gathering

What happens when you are in a car with your family,

Planning to eat somewhere when suddenly there was this car following you from behind?

A : Drive as fast and try to loose the car like Bond

B : Continue to drive normally

C : Invite them for Dinner as well! The more the merrier right? 

Apparently we choosed option C.

Why? You may be wondering.

Cause..... jeng....jeng....jeng

Its my bro's girlfriend driving behind us. ROFL

So we end up stopping at a petrol station in Green Lane where my bro got off and went into her car instead and together, we drove to Auto City in the Mainland.

It was fun and the interior design was fantastic.. It gives the feeling like you just in your own world. Ate buffet but you get to order the foods. Haha. It was Nett RM55.20 each but I guess it was worth it =P

It was fun, too bad I didnt brought my camera with me. Sorry guys~

Its Just another day~

Part 1

Well, I got an email from ucas regarding my application. Was very nervous when i login into my track as I keep on hoping that it will be an offer letter from LSE. But nevertheless it wasn't. Apparently it was from Lancaster. Requirements are the same with Manchester, AAB. But too bad, Sime Darby won't send me there. 

Its another boring day as usual. Aint holidays are like that after a while?

I'm getting to the point where I wake up, surf the net endlessly, and doing nothing.

Studying right now doesn't seem to be a bad idea as I have nothing else to do.

Would I, a person that never studies during the holidays finnaly start studying?

Part 2

Besides that, I can't never avoid the trouble that I have created for myself,

That why I need to endure it myself, alone..

There are times when I'm feeling low, when nothing else matters,

But just a phone call would do, a simple Sms.. 

Anything to ignite the spark,

And there onwards, I shall move on.

I just wanna ask you, 

Don't ever give up, even when everything seems lost,

Cause there is always a rainbow after the rain,

And a pot of gold beneath that rainbow,

Where happiness is contain.

Of People and Lies

Sometimes I just get fed up,

With certain people around me,

Acting like I don't exist everyday,

Not even a single Hi when I pass through,

But they expect me to greet them everytime.

Though I learn to ignore these people,

Eventhough they are my so call friends,

Or used to be best friends,

Time change people and so it did,

To certain people around me.

Everynow and then,

We will get in contact,

But for what reasons?

They'll ask for my help,

And expect me to help them since I'm their 'friend'.

After the help is given, *poof* they shall dissapear into the air,

And then cycle shall repeat itself over and over again,

Being kind ain't suppose to be like that,

I've learnt not to give help to people like that,

To ignore them, To act as they do not live.

What I'm finding for is just true friends,

That will laugh with you when your happy,

And cry with you when your sad,

Be with you when your lonely.

And not just those people in the mask,

Where they only come to you in times of trouble,

And deserts you when the sun is shinning,

Thanks for showing me who you all are,

Even after all these years all of you just won't change.

I'm ashamed to be called a part of you,

I'm ashamed to have met you,

Farewell is all I got to say,

And I hope we will never meet again.