Saturday, May 14, 2011

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Seven things? I'll try listing them down but.....


1. Exam/Revision - With finals starting next week what do you expect?


2. Food  - What to eat/cook. Oh should I eat noodles or rice today?


3. Sleep - I get tired easily and Imma koala! 


4. Gaming - I sooo wanna play but then I have to study T_T


5. Day trip - I want exams to be over so I can go somewhere! Day dreams of Milan, Paris and Turkey.


6. My Hair - I know its not well kept and well style, but I care lots about it :p Mirror is my best friend lol. Its hard for me, I want something simple and elegant and yet requires no effort at all. Guess no effort shouldn't be in equation.


7. People - They randomly popped into my mind for some reasons unknown. I miss them, I want to see them, I want to be with them but yet....


Okay that wasn't so hard. Just need to write down my train of thoughts.



Sheldon: Nothing. I've just been thinking about it. Now I'm thinking about fractal equations. Now I'm thinking about the origins of the phrase 'train of thought'. Now I'm thinking about trains.

Sheldon: Now I'm thinking about Jello. . . . Oh! Back to trains. Whoo whooooo!


Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.



1. Smile – I love smiles, so smile at me whenever you can. I think its the most beautiful thing of a person's feature.

2. Be headstrong, determined – Do everything in your power to achieve your dreams. Nothing attracts me more than a girl who has defined her life and working her best to achieve her dreams. Looking at people never giving up, makes me fall for them.

3. Have a great personality – What makes my heart falls the most is a person's personality. Cause its the only one unchanged after a long time. Be eccentric and don't mask yourself, that's all I ask for.

4. Sing for me – No matter how bad you sound, we all know that our hearts melts when someone sings a song for us, especially when it is dedicated just for us.

5. Be there for me – I don't want a 24/7 clingy type, just someone available 24/7 on call. This works both ways of course. Be there when I need you, be there when I don't need you, but never be there to annoy me.

6. Be a little childish – Tend to fall for cute stuffs, so being a bit childish might be the key here. Make yourself adorable. Though I can't explain how but simple gestures may seem adorable to me while the most obvious cute stuffs won't. Those are just plain irritating.

7. Surprises - I remember getting excited when I open my locker door in high school and find a note falling down or lying there staring at me. Although I love getting notes or random text messages with 'I miss you' or 'I love you' written on it, just being able to surprise me [out of random] is one way of winning my heart. *Note: Too frequent of 'I miss/love you' might end up feeling like just a routine and there onwards has no special meaning attached to it. So please use it moderately, just at a surprising time!

8.  Just be yourself - This is the most important part. Just be yourself. If you are destined to win my heart, you will. Don't pretend to be someone your not, it will be revealed sooner or later and we don't want to get there. If I don't like you for who you are right now, there's no point putting on a mask. Likewise, I expect the same of you, adore me for what I am. Don't expect me to change unless I want
it myself. A lifetime of habits can't be changed overnight.


Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Day 1 : Ten things you want to say to ten different person right now

I'll shall write it to whoever pops up in my mind right now. It is in chronological order

1. Chu Mei - You were my childhood friend, someone I shared everything with. Its funny how we lost contact and I don't thing we'll ever meet up again unless our fates are entwine somehow. Thank you for an amazing childhood memories.

2. Rosetta - I don't think you remembered me but I still remember the day, when you gave me flowers and say I love you and I want to marry you when I grow up. Being little, I didn't understand those words but it gave me a shock. Sorry to have just ran off just like that. I guess being Asian makes me unable to understand romance from a French Girl. However this fond memory makes me chuckle every time I think of it. For that I thank you.

3. Leon - You and I were besties when we were in primary school. We lost contact when you changed school and even when we met up later on, the bond just isn't there any more. This taught me that distance makes you forgets. Thank you for that lesson.

4. Chee Kit - You were my longest childhood friend. I seriously don't remember how we met and why we became friends. But you taught me a lot of stuffs. From being nice to being naughty, things I wouldn't thought of otherwise. I don't understand some choices you made, but I couldn't understand myself, so why would I understand you? Thanks for being there as well as being my friend.

5. Meor - I know you have another life now, but back then thanks for helping me move around in KYS because of my accident. You were patient and nice. Sorry for the trouble over that Pokemon card incident. Memories of how it became big now are so blurry but I just get laughter over how childish we are now. You are someone with Hyper Ventilation and I, myself with Hyper Tension. The two hyper, the two duos. I wish you well.

6. Melissa - You were always my role model when I was growing up. A CC, an athlete, smart in your studies, Violin 1 in the college orchestra and with a superb personality. I think I've never told you but the real reason I wanted to be in violin 1 was not because it is violin one, the top 'rank' and people there are considered the best. But just because it lets me hang out with you and Chong Li Li more often during practise.  More or less I join the athlete team because of you, I want to be more like you. Though CC was never my cup of tea, I tried to follow in your foot steps by being a Librarian and ultimately being a Head Librarian. Choosing Sime Darby was also because of your choice, you told me that Sime has more opportunities than Bank and I went with that. Thank you for being my role model, and thank you for being my Pet Sis albeit a while as you told me that we are adults now and 'pet sis' was something childish in high school. I'll forever look at you as a sister to me. :) To me, you are forever my Kak Mel.

7. Ika - Your headstrong, stubborn and rebellious. Keep it up. Life would be boring otherwise. Don't you reckon so. You looked innocent back then with big puppy dog eyes (yeah your contact make your sepet eyes looks slightly bigger). Thanks for being there for me and sorry I hurt you. Was immature back then so what can you expect? Nothing I could say but to apologies and no matter how many times I've said it. I just can't seem to say I'm sorry enough. It seems that it is just something that I couldn't forgive myself with. But I'm glad you are happy with your life now. All those memories we had, I'll keep it in a little corner of my mind. You are someone that doesn't give up, I know that. And I know you'll do well in the future.

8. Mrs. Beadsworth - You made my stay in KYUEM a wonderful one. Seeing you 4 times a day never seems to bore me. From computing lessons, psychology lessons, tutorial sessions as well as life saving practise, you taught me everything I needed to know. You gave me guidance whilst I was in KYUEM and I couldn't thank you enough. For you, made the stay in the jungle an interesting stay and not a boring one.

9. Tian Feng - I don't really know what to say to you right now. Perhaps I am still angry, perhaps I am just speechless. But from strangers to friend to close friend and finally a couple. I learn a lot from you. Perhaps the time spend together was just a transition time, a time of learning and perhaps karma payback. You made me who I am today, someone who thinks freely but however afraid to love. Perhaps its better this way as I am always unstable whilst I am in a relationship. Sometimes I tend to work harder because I am afraid that I would be called a useless boyfriend that couldn't match up or live up to expectations. I studied harder, learnt more because of you. You were my drive to excel till I become the top of my class for the year. I wanted an achievement you could be proud off. But that aside, that time we spent together, instead of a lover, I most often see you more as a very close friend. Someone to support and share tears and laughter together, without much commitments. I've realised that quality time is better than quantity (Isn't it always?), but as youngsters we tend to want quality and quantity as well. For now, I just want a friend and no lover. Thanks for that.

10. Myself - Dear Adrian, from a young kid to now. I've seen through your achievement and scars. The mask and lies you put on, you should really unshackle yourself from it. We only live once, so go and do everything that you want to. Don't be over committed to things, don't worry to much and go and enjoy. You have lived a life full of expectations and demands, you have warred with yourself and its time you won. So a note to you, be cool and be the person you have always want to be. Unmasked.

Seems to be like a recall of memories and thank you notes instead. Note that my parents are excluded from this because of I want to say something to them, I would have called them instead of writing it here in my blog. As for memories aside, its way too much to be written down.

Till tomorrow, adios.

10 Days challenge

10 days till the start of my 2nd year final exams. And I happen to stumble on this 10 Days Challenge at Tumbler.


Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

So here goes nothing :). Lifeless much

Monday, May 9, 2011

Procrastination and thoughts

So my room is now clean and I've made a timetable for myself. (well sorta guideline). 


Went to McDonalds for breakfast cause there wasn't any milk in the fridge. Was just the usual, double sausage McMuffin, double Hashbrowns with hot chocolate. While I was eating my breakfast I saw a chinese girl walk by across the street and she was eating an ice-cream. Wait, what. Ice-cream in the morning?


Ice-cream in the morning, really?


Somehow seeing her reminded me of Mel, of one time on our way back for Chinese New Year in 2005. I remember the date cause I was the year I first joined the athletes squad in KYS. When the 'driver' was driving us to the Malacca Central and had to stop by at a petrol station to refill the tank first, she asked if she could go out to the shop and get ice-cream. Funny scene really as the driver looked at her and said 'Kau nak makan ice-cream pagi-pagi ni. Tak takut sakit ker?'.


I still remember the giggle she had and  I, myself still being a child, giggled as well as I wanted an ice-cream as well. Who said ice-cream can't be eaten in the morning? It is just somehow unusual for people to eat ice-cream in the morning. :)






That aside, I saw two elderly couple walking side by side, holding each others hand. Sweet isn't it. I then thought of the time when someone said, 'I want someone that I can be with, someone that will how my hand till the end or 永远一起牵手. It made me smile slightly looking at them, so happy even when they are old.


However looking and holding my necklace that I found when cleaning my room earlier this morning, reminds me that I don't have that chance any more. I somehow made an oath to myself and I want to keep it for as long as my heart is scarred.

For you once know me, I thank you for nothing.


You're just another relic from the past, I wonder whether the other half is still in existence.



Anyway here is the song 'Thank you for nothing'. 

I was listening to it when I was looking at my partially completed scrap book. Initially I wanted to complete it last summer but there wasn't any reason to complete it after I came back from Bangkok. Simply, because there was no one to give it to.

But for now, I need to study! >_<;

Nostalgic time , fun time over, onwards to full throttle!

Okay, time to remove all the games from my computer and change to full throttle for studying. Exams is freaking next week :'(.

At least its well spread out.

So guys, see you later. Will be updating from time to time

Friday, May 6, 2011

I'm sure we can fly, on my love


'After an endless dream, in this miserable world
That's right, maybe not using common sense isn't so bad after all
Even with these awkward wings, dyed with images that seem to stay
I'm sure we can fly, on my love'
-Butterfly-
Remembering childhood times is sure fun, now I understand why an adult likes to sit there and recall his past.