Why?

'So why~ hy~ hy~ hy~ hy~ hy~ hy~

Just a small amount of happiness =). '

Life has been a bit topsy-turvy lately. Things happens, shit happens. I thought it would only occur next year, but somehow 'it' managed to creep itself earlier. I felt that it is a bit odd (strange nevertheless) , but I won't question why, or be sad about it nor would I go back on my word.

I was in it ready to let it go, in order to safeguard 'it'. So if I was not being taken seriously, I might as well focus on other stuffs and steer my life into a different direction, one that (hopefully) would compensate the past 21 years of my life.

Yet again, planning is a waste of time.

Freshers week is going on. I don't really feel like hoarding a lot of free Dominos coupons anymore. I'm still sick of that one week craze of double thin crust with cheese, or whatever it was called crust. Eurgh >.<

And the clubbing scene still feels like a stranger to me.

I still like to sit at the side and watch other people dance instead of me, myself dancing.
I still dislike drinking excessive amount of alcohol. (Of course unless its a 'toast' for the birthday girl/boy'.
But I do like the music played there,
However, I think it is best enjoyed with the scene, observing.
Its funny to see how carefree and crazy people can be in the clubs.

這一幕，我很快就會錯過它。

PS: I need to write more in English. I have noticed that my Malaysian-English and Chinese-English is slowly overpowering my writing! Argh!

一天

每天要小心一点，
不知道什么时候会下雨，
不知道什么时候将有大的风，
不知道什么时候我会笑还是会哭，
情感，坚强和混乱。
一个人的寂寞，有强心，
但可能不会持续太久。
只是在等待，
等待那一天。

Memories....

'No matter how much I wish to return, I never move from this spot

When I close my eyes, you are always there smiling

Every time I remember that smile, tears flow from my eyes

I am not strong enough to say good-bye to the past and move on

Yet those memories are not flimsy enough to get carried away by the waves of time

That's why I've always...

I'll never forget, wherever I am

Whatever I do I'll always think of you

Even if I lose sight of the road I already traveled

Even if I cannot return to those days, The footprints on the ground will always be there

I will always wish that the day will come where we will meet

And laugh with each other....'

21 years in this world. I wonder, what have I gotten myself into and what have I achieved? It has been a roller coaster ride this past 9 years, from my life changing enrollment into an elite high school, going to college and finally to enrolled in a university in the UK [top 30 in the world nevertheless]. I wonder, if I had make a different decision back then, not following you ;) , how different would my life have been?


Working life isn't so bad at all. Thanks to Kumari, Martha, Muja, and all YSD Staffs (Farib , whom I always love to disturb, Che Din who sits next to me :p, Intan who entertains me whenever I stopped by the Education Sponsorship Team cubicles, Zerizan and Ismail and the list goes on and on =)). You guys make me feel that working can be enjoyable!


Religion aside, turning for a church raised Christian, into learning about other religion, becoming and Elder and holding the Melchizedek Priesthood, an Elder, to enter the temple and perform baptism for the dead and then finally into an Agnostic Atheist while searching for my own truth, its been a while and still a long journey ahead.


People have list of things they want to do before they are 30, 40 or even 21, cause 21 marks the age when you are actually being recognise as an adult. I never gave a thought of that list but as this night draws closer to an end, I gave it a thought.... 'Have I done everything I wanted to before I'm 21?'.


The answer is YES.


I shall live a life with no regrets. =) No worries, just living life to the fullest. It hurt me that some memories are bitter sweet, with the bitter part overwhelming that little drop of sweetness, but I'm still happy for it.


I thank thee because it happened, and I was there to experience it. =)


I laugh at those silly versions of me in the past,


That is because I have grown and learnt to see the 'silly-ness' of my former self.


^^ But life needs to be a little silly, don't you think?

Cheers, to the years ahead of me!

如果...

如果明天来了，
我还是一样的我，
你还是把我一样吗？

如果明天来了，
我忘记了我是谁，
你会提醒我，我是谁吗？

如果明天来了，
而你不在我身边了，
你会过来找我吗？

如果明天来了，
我不是相同的我，
你会说嗨吗？

如果明天来了，
我还是我自己，
我会笑，因为这是我所采取的路径。

Lack of time..

Lack of time and busy.. I'm getting too tired these days but I wonder how Martha still update her blogs daily. :] Must have been done during office hours! hehe

Anyway here's a song :p I finally found the mv after procrastinating for so long. Well you know me.

Reminder to self!

Blog on Merlimau and blog on Ayer Keroh :) I'm too tired to talk now so good night.

Work is catching on me... all those years trying to avoid work ;)

Scholars camp and Results

Can't believe this will be my last scholars camp. It only felt like yesterday that I was in Carey Island meeting all those Pre-u students. Shortly after that is the London camp where I first met our CEO and now its towards the end.

But the camp... oh the camp :P This was tiring and fun! The last few we always end early (around 10-ish) but this is the first time we finish our day around 12-3am. Our time management were really put to the test this time.

Its really nice to meet our fellow scholars from Indonesia, Singapore and Hong Kong :). We were all in our own comfort zone during the first day where we just mingle among ourselves but that soon went away.

We are just young people with the urge to learn and have fun!

Unfortunately, being sleepy is one thing I find to be the cause of my lowered performance level. I'm still in hibernation mode :D. Sleeping around 16 hours a day [Darryl's gonna kill me for this, I'm such a koala :D]. I find my presentation slightly slurred towards the end when I just want to finish it A.S.A.P. No wonder Ms. Nadia said I was mumbling towards the end. Truth to be told, I just don't have the energy to project my voice across the hall (All thanks to the sore throat I early that morning).

All in all, its great. I've learnt a lot and I still have a lot to learn!

Now towards the uninteresting parts, 2nd year University results~

When I first open my email, I found the results notification email. So far so good. No resit emails (Good news) but no best student email as well =(. I was looking forward to it. However, looking at the reduced effort I put into university this year, I was just expecting a 2nd Upper. Serve me right.

Oh yes, Adrian got a 2nd Upper for this year. I'm glad everything is fine but since this is 2nd year and its counted towards my final degree, here's a sad smiley to accompany the post :'(

Other than that, can't wait to start working. I'm place under YSD :D So time to learn!