I'm sad

AMA paper is today and boy do I hate semester 1's material... ='[

Listening to Shiga Lin's I'm still loving you.

A very nostalgic feeling, I do miss those moments.

Here's to the end and the start of a new beginning.

*yadda yadda*

I don't want this to end!

Un-needed Help

I know giving someone help is a good thing, especially when they refuse the help when they are in need of it. But sometimes a forceful help isn't helping, its hurting them.

You are robbing them of their own freedom, or their initiative to be independent. 

I believe that if people who are intelligent, would seek help when they need it. 

Is it too much to ask for to be left alone so I could gather my thoughts?

吳雨霏《我本人》

='] 每个人都有一个地方。

au revoir et adie..

Cause every time I think I about you,

I think about pain,

I remember every single word you say,

Like deja vu, you said we're through,

And now that's all I think about when I think about you,

And it burns

And it burns

-Jason Chen-

If I have to chase you for and fight for your attention, eventually I won't want it any more 

-Will Smith-

Sounds like a quitter, but a stubborn person is someone who knows not when to quit. =] My head aches, my heart stings, and my eyes drop tears.

Its a season worth living for, a season worth remembering, and definitely a season that should not be repeated.

Feel like this~

Listening to soundtracks makes me feel so calm these days. Even when I'm under lots of stress, it still feels like its gonna sort itself out in the end.

Just a bit of crescendo to get me going <3

愛してる

I remember the time when I was afraid to say I Love You, so I gather my courage and said 愛してる instead. To me, those 4 words are the most meaningful to me when said in Japanese.

Its better than I love you, aku cinta padamu, ngo oi le, wo ai ni and even to its near counterpart , koishiteru.

It has a deep meaning to me. =']

Dreams

It was a weird one, but I was dying to know what happen next. Funny thing happens when you are dreaming.

Can't recall much of it but I remember being selected as a representative for this surviving competition. 6 v 6. The rules is simple, you have to move and complete a certain route and while you are doing so, you are free to eliminate anyone from the opposition team, or from your own team.

*Warning 'cruelty' post* ahead of you.

It started with me running, like literally running through bolders of rocks in a cave. We were being chased by creatures, I can't really define what they are or so. On top of that, the cave was caving in. So its either being crushed by the rocks or getting devoured by those 'creatures'. Not a fancy sight either way. It seems people around me are dying in the most gruel some way ever, being crushed by the creatures or having their spines broken into two by the stalactites that keep falling down and being pushed over and landing on some of the stalagmites. Bloods were everywhere.

I finally arrive at the the checkpoint. It was a tall watch tower like post with ropes dangling from it. You were suppose to climb your way to the top. Not really helpful when you have those creatures jumping towards you and the stalactites falling down. I had to fend off some of them with my fist as well as swing my rope to avoid the rocks. 

After that we arrive at what looked like a guard post, bridge like place. We were separated by a door and it seems the participants from the opposition team has just arrived. I walked past this one dude and he gave me a grin. Something fell down on the floor and a girl pick it up, blowing and cleaning it like its her precious thing. She asked, should she ignore it or keep it. The dude next to me say keep it and she did. 

Moments later she dropped dead and through some microscopic visions [dreams don't make sense at this point], some microscopic insect/bacteria manage to crept into her via the thing she picked up and killed her. The guy next to me smirk, and I look around. There seem to be more than 6 people at this point but some keep dropping dead, like someone was still thinning the crowd. 

At last it stopped and an announcement was made. Your next task is to go through the door on the right and reach the checkpoint at the end of the cave.

Great, another run and kill event. Seems like I've been doing this a lot. I've just got that feeling. I started to run. The same images kept flashing again. Creatures spawned again and were chasing us, caves caving in. Only this time it was dark with a slight hint of light. My eyesight was blurred, I trip and fell. I can fell that the creatures jump past me, chasing their targets in front of me.

A girl jumped down from above and spoke to me. You can't die, we are the resistance. She shouted to one of her friends and an immerse source of light lit the place. *Imagine a light orb, but huge on going towards that direction*. Follow the light, we need to get out of here.

And then I woke up.

Weird dream, I wanted to continue it, but alas it didn't happen. Still figuring out why the hell did I dream of something like that. =/