Judgemental me

Who am I to judge people? I'm not a perfect human being myself. But most of the time I just can't help it. Its like second nature to me....

Anyway sidetrack~

Whenever I see this video, I'll think of Port Dickson... =/ Damn.... The future that I will never have.

When you are stuck in between...

So we bid farewell to 2012, and say hello to 2013.

Exciting isn't it?

Must be, we survived the apocalypse anyway. We have a tale to be told for many generations to come...

Or do we?

I wonder if an 'apocalypse' can be a slow bleeding one. One that gradually gets worse with time, and not the expected BANG! End of the World. We are all dead and its time to either go to heaven or hell. Period.

Last chance of salvation.

Religion isn't really my sort of thing after I went 'rogue' 2 3 years. I've tried to believing, to truly submerge myself into religion for 1 and a half years, searching and waiting.

Good things come to people who search. Knock and it shall be open/given unto you.

But after all of that, all I get was a pat on the back, but that feeling of what I know is true, was just never there.

I still believe there's more to live than just living our daily life. More to be done, more to be seen.

And I shall continue looking for it. I've been relaxing and burying myself into mundane jobs for the past 1 year. Its time I get back into the game.

SO, lets stick to the 'ritual' that we do each year.

My new year resolution this year is to:

1. Get more spiritually intact with the greater power (If any does exist).
2. Continue my search to find THE truth, or my own truth. Whichever one it may be.

and on a side note

3. Buff up, get fatter. I just don't want to be a skinny tall guy any more. Maybe I am THE skinny tall guy everyone have reference to. But I just don't want to be that.

All in all, this year's resolution is about change.

Aren't all new year's resolution 'bout that?

PS: Can't use the same thing I said last year. 'My new year's resolution is the same as the year before, and the year before cause I don't remember it anymore.

I hope everyone has a wonder new year and may 2013 brings the best out in us.

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Random

I still recall Mel asking me why do you want to work in finance/account. You can never do a good/great job at it. You are expected to have everything perfect, without making any mistakes.

No matter how good are at it, its expected that you are suppose to be that good.

But when the mistakes are spotted, hells runs loose.

._. I've learnt my lesson. January is Monthly closing as usual, Quarter and Mid-Year GFA. Thanks Group Finance for giving us extra jobs T_T.

Anyway, I need to find something to do soon. Ro2 is only going live on 27th so I need something to occupy my time till then.

Any suggestions?

1st Doctor trip in 4 years ;)

I've never been to the NHS for a treatment the entire 3 years I was in the UK. Water, bland food and plenty of rest was what I always took when I was sick, and Lemsip, can't forget about Lemsip. One of the most soothing solution of colds.

This morning I woke up at 6 a.m vomiting. I didn't wake up with the feeling of wanting to vomit, I just woke up and puke right away. You could say the puke woke me up.  >.<

It went for a while and when I thought it was over, I went back to sleep. At 8 a.m my usual time for waking up, I went and puke again. When that was over, I was so tired that I don't think I can go to work, so I call in sick. Weee, first MC in four years! (Trying to be excited about it, I still remember that I used to take loads in KYS an KYUEM.)

Went to the clinic at 8.15 a.m but it was still closed. Oh well, back to bed then.

Anyway eventually I woke up and went to see the doctor. She was in her early 40s I think. Anyway to cut to the chase, she asked me whats wrong, and told me briefly what could be wrong, asked me do I need a MC and said goodbye. No hassle, no bothersome checkup and no problem getting the MC. Sounds good right?

No, not really to me.

She appears to be hurrying of to somewhere else. I was given a brief description, not a detailed one, and my questions were cut off shortly before I even finish it. And about the MC, I know I needed it, but the way she was giving it to me was like she would give it to anyone whether they are really sick or pretending to be sick.

Which I am kind of disappointed with, I might be making a mountain out of a molehill here but if you do not check your patient properly and just give them the basic medicine, is that really proper? Medicine isn't really a thing to be meddle with.

='( Sorry for the rambling. On the bright side, I had no urgent outstanding matters at work and I get to rest the entire day.

=) Toodles!

Somewhere only I know....

I miss listening to Lifehouse.

I miss the girl who proposed (to her now husband) during the concert. 

I miss being unable to keep my eyes of you.

I miss being alive.

I still remember twas the time, where Jason Wade would sing and we would sing along with him. Lovely! <3 p="p">
Work has been just work, started to laze a bit and there during the off peak period. Seems just right for me to enjoy after my double dosage of bad luck.

1: Room flooded, laptop damaged and some of my previous book.

2: A few days later, got hit by a Vios from the back. Car is currently in the workshop awaiting claims.  I can't drive till further notice. Sucks right? I better get it back before closing.

Its been a while...

I heard it in your voice when your love died
On a telephone connection stretching miles and miles of wire
You said it was over and then cried and cried
You were gone before I said goodbye

I don't like to think it is true
That distance came between us like a knife and cut right through
Where did we go wrong and let it all undo?
The only one I ever loved was you
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/k/kina_grannis/stay_just_a_little.html ]
Would you stay just a little, my love?
Would you sway just a little, my love?
Because the hole in the middle of my heart needs filling up
If you stay just a little, that's enough

It kills me as I lay awake at night
Remembering the last kiss that we shared doesn't feel right
Is it impossible for me to win this fight?
Keep you a little longer in my life

Its been a while since I last listen to Kina. Finding some of her older songs. I'm finally caught up with my reading, those books on my shelf requires my absolute attention and I've been ignoring them for a while now.

Feels good to sit back and read again. Now I just need to find a private corner to read, or perhaps a lake/forest (But where would you find one in Subang? Maybe I'll go Shah Alam where there are a lot of trees but I still need an open park.

*To do list: 

1. Read out in the open.
2. Bring bug sprays just incase cause you know how reading outdoor in Malaysia is.
3. If the above fails, just go read at Starbucks.

Work life

Its been a rough transition, leaving the comfort zone of being a student and entering the working life. 10 more days till payday, seems pretty much 'something' to look forward to.

Life as an accountant is pretty routine. Thank goodness I got whacky and crazy team mates and bosses that would joke around and help ease the tension. Where's the boredom you may ask? Its not that I;m not bored doing the same routine everyday month, but its that we are rushing against time every single time and feeling frustrated about people or the system that we don't have time to think how boring it is.

Welcome to the life where you revolve around the clock. Tick tock tick tock the time is ticking and you gotta submit your work.

Welcome to my life ;)

#On a different note, Subang is pretty cool. =P