Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Reassessing priorities

Dear Me,

I'm still wondering if the person you fall for, is she really the right person for you?

Find someone who complements you,
Who would bring out the best in you,
Not someone who you feel comfortable with,
For you have friends for that.

Find someone who you know,
Them inside out,
Even though you don't know what the future holds,
You will never let them go,
And ride the storm with them.

Find someone who makes you listen,
When they aren't happy, when they throw a tantrum,
And even after that, you learn, compromise and move on,
Never forgetting.

Please do try to find this person,
Otherwise, just find someone that makes you happy,
Perfection is a bitch,
And you know I've long been happy with just nearly perfection.


Thursday, August 13, 2015

Say something....

Its like an annual event since 2009, to meet up, catch up and to laugh about how silly we are.

Mistakes we did, the uninformed decisions we made, the childish fights we had.

Looking back, first love was indeed a memorable one.

But we have since then moved on, towards life and towards other goals. We talked about the people we made, the silly fights or break ups we had with our significant others.

We have to thank each and everyone of them, and each other of course. Because of them, we are who we are today.

:) Here to years to come.

I shall look forward to either:
a) Your Marriage
b) Cats... loads of them. xD


Sunday, August 9, 2015

Falling slowly

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won
Falling Slowly, Once

Thank you for the love that I have felt around me,
For the people who cared, and stayed by my side,
I pray for the courage to believe in love again,
To put the pain of the past behind me,
To take that leap of faith.

I told myself I'll never forget, nor will I dwell in the past,
But words are easier said that done.
I guess this journey has not ended,
And I'm still a traveler,
Yet to close this chapter of my life.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

May you rest well

When plans goes awry, and things doesn't work the way I want it to be, day after day, month after month and year after year.... you'll feel that the fire within you is burning less bright. Dimmer and dimmer.

If you expect something and you fail to get it, you will be dissapointed. If you aim too high and you almost got there, but you're still inches from reaching it, its still far away. You didn't make it, period.

I guess because of this continuous trend I had, I gave up on expecting. I tried to live in the moment instead of planning for the future. I told myself, if I want to do something, I should go and do it. If I want to say something, I should say it. There isn't a right moment. Just moments.

However, years slugging at work and studying had made me blunt. I'm still living the random life I told myself I will do, but my circle and area grew smaller and smaller by the day. My comfort zone if you may say it.

I fell for the easy things, the things that could easily fit in my schedule. Assessable places and time, those were my selection criteria.

Today was a wake up call to me. The trip that I tried to avoid, to return to my alma matter, to embrace my past that I've been running away from.

I always headed north, never south, for obvius reason. Too many heartaches, too many sad memories in the past. Today I add another one to the list.

However what prompted me to come were actually happy memories. Memories I had as a kid 13 years ago with my sensei. I recall her patience voice when she taught hiragana and katakana to us from form 1 to form 3. The songs we sang from Doraemon no uta, Sakura Sakura , Mirae and Nada Sou Sou.

I recall the greedy me when I wanted both best student award and the classroom price. Sensei told me I could only choose one as she wanted to be fair. But she ended up giving me both. The kodansha dictionary that she gave me is something I treasure most back in my teenage years, but was left in the shelf as time goes by.

I'm glad I came to say goodbye, I'm glad I came to say my thanks.

You will be missed Aoki Mikiko Sensei...

'I whispered "Thank you" as I turn the pages of this old photo album,
Always, always in my heart, there's a person who encourages me,
On any days, whether the sky is clear or if its raining, that same old smile emerges on your face,
Even when my memories of you fade away, I would search through my mind again,
And on days when you come back to life in my memories, my tears will flow endlessly'.

Tuesday, December 9, 2014


I guess its a little high up for him, till he builds the confident to jump from there.

This little rascal used to be afraid of heights but he jumps on almost anything now, including the table (if there's chairs nearby).

One more paper to go AD. You can do this #icaew #whyareyousotorturing?

Saturday, November 22, 2014

Pre-December stress relieve

Last year I bought a rabbit, and been loving it since.

This year I'm set on redecorating my room. Albeit with the limited budget, I'm pretty keen on it :)

Lets try to do, redecorating your room on a budget!

Monday, August 25, 2014

Past year end update.

Hey ho! I'm still alive! Can you believe that?

Been busy like hell during the year end closing and when we are almost done with it, my boss dropped a bomb on our team saying that we are gonna do another full year end come Sept/Oct.

Which is like gawd why? All our leaves are canceled. No holiday plans for us then. :'(

Took leave tomorrow to sleep. Am at KLIA at the moment. Its 4.54 a.m at the moment. Just a lil bit more :D