After all those Frustration...

We got first and highest in both group projects! Love you guys. I don't know how the sudden commitment came but Thank you all for that. First class for all of us!

Anyway Christmas was quite okay this year. Will update more on it. Still busy with MSSM and hell I need to start revising!

Today I hate PPK-ers

Well in cantonese, PPK is FFK or Fong Fei Kei. So today was suppose to be the mock presentation. Out of 5, only Julia and I turned up. Had a run through with Julia so it wasn't that bad, but I wish the others could be present. Somehow, most of them are out of town so =S, no practise for today

Sometimes you just wanna cry

*Editors note, all those who are referred to here are altered by name. The author does not blame them nor is he talking behind their back. He understands that each people have their personality, thoughts and objectives and thus knows that its only in human that we do mistake. Please do not be offended by anything written in this post. It is from MY point of view and from my thoughts.*

Sometimes in my life I just want to break down and cry. Standing loosely on the earth with the shadowy clouds above my head, where the moon shines gently on me, understanding my pain. Wouldn't that be lovely even when life is againts you?

Sadly, honeymoon period is over in Uni. Even when I was meeting deadlines and submitting my assignment and getting excellent reports back, its beginning to fumble now.

It started with group presentation where everyone was panicking as the deadline was tomorrow, and not two weeks later which everyone in the cohort assumed. Note that I used the word assumed as our Academic Tutor did ask us to double check the dates. Sadly none of us did. =S

I was fine with the deadlines, nothing is the matter with it as my slides are ready and I just need them to have a mock practise and scrub ourselves from there. But to my horror, this situation appeared.

****************** STARTING OF STORY, PART ONE*****

Me: The presentation is tomorrow, can we have our mock practise session tonight?
A : Sorry I have an important date tonight, I can't attend.
B : I have to go to the gym later and I will be tired so I won't be able to come.

*Okay, its an important date and well if they are not willing to sacrifice such things for our presentation, what can I do about it eh? Mind you, the presentation is 45% of my module mark. FOURTY FIVE PERCENT! Thats a whole lot!!!*

Me: Okay fine, when are you free then?
A : We can have a practise session tomorrow at 8am, before lectures starts.
Me: Okay, I'm fine with that. Everyone else okay with it?
C : Sorry I can't come. I need to eat breakfast and my hall serves it at 7.45am.

*Faints*

****************** END OF PART ONE******************************************

Seriously, I can deal with dates if they want. But Breakfast because your hall serves you at that time? Can't you get a sandwich or something, heck I could even cook for you if you want so! But in the end, the presentation got postpone. Got a heck of scolding from Pedro because of it but as a Student Rep, that is what I am expected of I guess. But later then when I ask can we have our practise session, everyone was saying.....

"Its due in two weeks time, We'll do it next week."

Gosh! Procastination is what got 1/2 of the cohort in this mess in the first place, and now we want to procastinate again? =S

***** STARTING OF STORY, PART TWO*****

Business and Application Design. Had a 40 minutes pointless discussion where only the last 5 minutes matter.

ME: I've set up the buttons and layout. Is there anything you want to change, for example the button's name cause I just named it and will change it later.

*Have a 35 minutes argument of what suppose to be the buttons/link where they wanted 'that' and not what I put, when I told them its fine cause 'this' is just a dummy. Clearly they didn't understand that so it when on and on and on........*

Thursday, was dead tired and wanted to sleep after QUANTS. X called me and ask are we doing the website or not? I was almost at my door so I turned back, walked my way to the MBS computer cluster. Only to find X leaving us guys behind 15 minutes later cause she has to go to work for at 2pm, and mind you it was 10am at that time and she left just because I didn't bring my hard drive. =S I live 2 minutes to that building and you can't wait 2 minutes just to do the job you CALLED me too? =X Sorry but in my humble opinion, I think that sucks.

So later on Friday I asked X to do a UML Diagram for the presentation. We had a guest French lecturer where no one was paying attention *Well some might, including me*, and I personally requested Nikolay to repeat that lesson when he came back. And guess whats the answer I received,

X : Sorry but I have no idea how to do it.
ME : Erm, learn how to do it? We had two lectures on it, one by the french lecturer and one by Nikolay this week.
X : Ah, the French lecturer *giggles*. But still I don't know how to do it and I will be away this weekend.
ME : Just do it, please?

Having doubts in X, I asked another colegue of mine to do it. He told me he didn't know how to do it but when I said it was in the slides, he said he will take a look and try to do it.

Less 'excuses' and more trying to do. I like this. Seriously if you don't know how to, learn how to. If you missed it, try to learn it some other way. I don't want to be seem pushy but sometimes, people just don't get it. Since you are the expert, you are expected to do everything. Once again this Website + Presentation is a whole 40% (FOURTY PERCENT) of my module mark. I would love to spilt the job to everyone but somehow they just pushed it back to me =(.

***** END OF PART TWO*****

Okay, so I am worried that I might not be able to achieve my 60% afterall with this kind of team. =X I want a First and not just a 2nd upper but it seems hard with everyone trying to get just a PASS. No spirit or hardwork cause they just want a pass. For Freak sake, if I don't get 60% I'll get send back to Malaysia!

****** STARTING OF STORY, PART THREE*****
Londoners were coming to Manchester. Great! I said to myself, one weekend which I could enjoy. Sadly after a busy day I came back with a question asked to me on skype.

'Blackpool this Saturday with the Londoners, are you coming?'

I mean, its not that Blackpool Pleasure Beach ain't fun, its just that Hariz and I already have something planned for the Londoners which includes, Rusholme, Old Trafford MU tour, Trafford Center, Christmas Market, Piccadilly and Piccadilly Garden.

So basically Blackpool kinda screw those plans off. But its okay, if they are fine with it then why not. So I replied "Yeah, sure. Who's buying the ticket?". Guess what I got for reply?

S :I bought the tickets online already.
ME: Did you buy mine?
S : No I didn't. I tried to ask you earlier on skype but since you didn't reply, I thought you weren't coming.
ME: ..........

I later on bought the tickets before realizing that I have AGM on that day. Bought Dee's as well so thats £20 wasted on the drain. =S Its freaking RM100++ man!

Nevermind, Chill.... it's just money. Its your mistake for not remembring that there is AGM.

But then came Saturday. Slept at Dee's common room at 3am because of Mike's birthday. (Happy Birthday again Mike!) Woke up at half past eight and went to the station with Hariz to pick Farhanah, Belle and Mai. Went back to sleep later and woke up at 12.30pm before I prepare myself and go to Sackville Building for the AGM. To cut short, I wasted 3 hours there and a possible trip to Blackpool because it was cancelled and postpone due to some miscommunication. Can't blame them but this just adds to my discomfort.

At night, S text me and said that they are going Rusholme. I asked:

ME: Aren't we suppose to go to Christmas Market? Didn't you just go to Rusholme yesterday?
S : Some just arrive today and I think they should go and eat at the restaurant at Rusholme.
ME: *Feeling pretty pissed* Well IF you want to follow the ORIGINAL PLAN and go to the Christmas Market, then text me when you guys arrived. Otherwise, good night. Cause Rusholme is open till 3am and Christmas Market is open till 10pm.

S decided to go to the Christmas Market. I went to pick up Dee cause I had her buzzer thingy. When I texted S where she was, she replied Market Street and she will text us the exact location when we arrive at Market Street. So there we were at Market Street and all we got was ' At the Santa Claus in front of the Christmas Tree'. Great! Since when there is a Christmas Tree in Market Street.

So Dee and I search for it, up till a point we gave up. We tried texting S cause non of us could call but no reply. 1 and a half hour later we got a phone call. We asked them where they were and S replied at the Christmas Tree. I asked which Christmas Tree cause at the end of Market Street, there are roads to the left or to the right. Then S just said Christmas Tree. I asked her again whether it is at Market Street or Piccadilly Gardens. Then suddenly A said on the other end of the phone, S we are at Albert Square, not Market Street.

"£$%%^&* All this time they were at the Christmas Market while we were freezing at Market Street looking for them for 1.5 hours. Believe me, the rain didn't help either. But its okay, it is norm for human to make mistakes. So A asked me do I want to join them for dinner at Aghan's at Rusholme. I said okay and asked what time are you going to? He said now, so off Dee and I went to Rusholme.

We reached there at 9.30pm but they only arrived an hour later. Bus delayed due to the Eid celebration. The celebration is weird here but futher comments on that. A text would be greatly appreciated if there were any but there was none. Dee and I just sat there, waiting for them to come.

They came an hour later and we had a fantastic dinner. But Dee and I felt like we wasted a lot of time just wasting by waiting. Dee could have been doing uni work or watching a movie with Mike, Tom and the rest while I could be at Laura's celebrating both Michelle's and Latrisha's combined birthday party. Not to mention assignments to worry about. But I couldn't blame them. Bus were not coming according to schedule and there was the traffic.
****************** END OF PART THREE******************************************

So everything combined together just makes me feel like bursting out, crying down. I would be great to have a shoulder to cry on but for me, I can only cry alone. Its sad but true.

I know human makes mistakes and we are all here to improve. But sometimes its just too much for me to take. I breakdown and I collapse, thats me.

And for that, I cry for the first time in the last 6 months.

A day with the Missionaries

Firstly I would like to apologize for not yet posting those updates that I promised. Soon! Just after I'm done with all my deadlines and assignments!

Today was great. Did my first task as a ward missionary which is to assist the missionaries! The initial plan was to visit two person to have lessons with them.

After picking me up, we drove towards the first person. But somehow we missed a few roads and could not get there in time =X. Manchester is a city pretty much like KL where some turns have no U-Turns. Therefore we have to drive all the way along Deansgate just to turn back. We had to reschedule the lesson though. =S Time constraint.

Next was apparently a person name Naomi. =) We were there a bit early so Elder Larson and Elder Hasting tried to find people to spread the word and have lessons which. Some were really open about it and listen but most of the time it was rejections. I find it hard to try preach someone about the church when most of them are already Christians. Initially I just walked with them, observing them.

As time goes by, maybe led by the spirit... confidence crept into me. I began speaking alongside with the Elders. Although I wasn't the one looking for people to approach, this was a start! at 4.15pm we went over Naomi but apparently she wasn't at home. =( So we left leaving behind a note.

I went back and cook maggi cause I didn't do my grocery shopping yet and had to throw away the chicken breast meat that I bought earlier cause it was looking dodgy.

Went to Stretford Ward for the Ward Missionaries meeting. My first meeting ^^. Interesting enough a guy pop inside the meeting. We reckon he was a bit 'nuts' cause he was babbling and making weird statements. No offence but seriously, he wasn't making any senses.

Later on I joined the Elders to go to Sam's place where they gave him a lesson. It was on the law of chastity, tithing and order preparations for baptism. =)

Tomorrow is the Institute... Friday the Londoners are coming to Manchester, and we are finalizing the slides for Business and Management Presentation. Saturday AGM for MSSM and I have to work on my web and database assignment! Woah! Busy weekend ahead!

Updates

Sorry guys, been sick and very busy lately. Reading week didn't help that much as I was in bed most of the time.

Upcoming updates

1. Trip to Lake District

2. Movie Mania

3. Life so far...

OF 1 Lady, 2 girls and a guy. =D

Okay so I probably be killed for writing the title that way but let the mystery begins.. Which one of you is the lady? =D Figure that out yourself!

Okay so the story began. Aileen, Nichelle, YY, Hariz, Adina and I were suppose to go to Blackpool. I sign up for it but the rest didn't do so immediately so by the time they wanted to register, there weren't anymore vacancies. Therefore I had and almost went alone! =(

It was during the MUJS (Manchester University Japanese Society) screening night that Nichelle (who was on the reserve list) got a place and then later on, YY as well =P. Yippee! I don't have to go alone!

Anyway to cut the story short, the next day we travel around and hour and a half to go to the Pleasure Beach located at Blackpool. I actually thought that there will be beaches so we (Okay fine, me alone Y_Y) brought our beach attire.

It was fun since I haven't been on the roller coaster for a long time , Nichelle never been on one (this water fish is too scared), YY's been on a lot so its good for her and lastly Fion, a second year student at Manchester Metropolitan University (MMU or ManMet for short) who is studying Accounting and Finance.

First we went around the park, warm up with some less demanding rides which is this Wild Mouse. However as my friend Greg would later put it so, the ride is a rough one. =)

Wander into the kiddies area, Beaver park and saw these adorable figures playing at the window.

This is the ride known as the Bling! It basically just turn around and around while at the same time turning you 360 degrees round and round. Quite a dizzy ride to be honest. But if you enjoy yourself being fling around (Note: Fling NOT Bling, or perhaps it should be bling around =D), then get on this ride

Had a light lunch. I mean me! Can't have a heavy one with all the turning upside down and fast rides right?

This is the BIG ONE, which basically covers around 70% of the theme park I guess. Was terrified to go on it at first cause it is really really really high up! Not to mention I hate it when the ride is going down cause you have these feeling that you are gonna be flung out of your seat. End up going on it twice, one in the morning and another at night when all the lights are flashy.

Nichelle and I

Yes there is a parking lot reserve for Doctor Who's TARDIS!

YY, Fion and Me at the entrance to the Ghost Train.

The girls and ladies. YY, Fion and Nichelle

This was before we got on the IRN revolution ride. The ride basically shoots you forward doing a 360 lane and then in reverse mode when you can only see whats in front of you and it is going backwards.

Overall it was a good day. Departed at 8.30am and return at 9pm at night. A fun day ^^

Manchester

And so it came to pass, I've gotten myself settled down in Manchester. =P The scenery is pretty awesome. Those fable tales of the street being clean is so wrong (Well its not too bad, just that you can see a bit of rubbish around, still better than Malaysia). Haha, probably that was a lie to make ourself much more clean.

This is a cathedral down Oxford Road, it is situated near the Whitworth Park where we did our registration. Mind you, it took quite a while as there was a really really long queue.

And this is Whitworth Hall. No, Dee, Hariz and Umyra is not staying here... in fact they are further down the road.

The Student Union Building where societies do their gathering and event tickets are for sale.

And today as of 25th September, there was a few booth at the Grosvenor Park (I have no idea what the real name is but I shall call it a Park, well it does look like one, minus the bench)

Here is THE rodeo ride. The record was set at 64 or 67. I think someone got himself 67 seconds after I left but I am not really sure. Zack lasted 43 seconds while I lasted a mere 21 seconds. Yeah , I am ashamed of myself but nevertheless I did gave it a try. After much persuasion from Zack and Terry.

Oh ya, you guys don't know who the are yet. Well they are my hall mates. We live at Bowden Court Flat 17. I live in the first room and it is situated on the ground floor so just give my window a knock. Its the left one from the door.

Gladiator Fight? Terry is on the blue platform while Zack is on the red one. Terry was being squashed by Zack as he kept felling off. I told him that it wasn't really his fault, the platform was wobbly. After several people tried to bring Zack down (In which they failed horribly), one guy did.

Round Two was Terry on the Red Platform and Zack on the Blue platform. Zack still give Terry quite a fight (His skills and stability in unquestionable) but Terry manage to bring him down a couple of times.

Overall its my 5th day here in Manchester. Great place so far albeit that the mall close at 6pm and some at 8pm.

Sorry for the absence

Well after result day on the 10th of August, I didn't really want to write down how frustrated, shock, depress, baffled, or *insert emotion here*.

Been pretty busy lately. You know, planning, phone calls, continue being a sloth and etc. After Doomsday struck and luckily I manage to survive, thanks to the support shown by friends and of course you, Feng =).

A few notetable people who are Maalini, Jolene, Faye, Aliza, Kok Din, Daniel, Ibrahim , Amirul, Isa, Ken, Chee Kit, Mel, Chong Li Li, Audrey and Boon Seong. Sorry if I missed out any names. =) There's a whole list but just to let you know, I appreciate that.

So I had appealed, to LSE and Warwick but after several emailing sessions the answer they gave me was please wait until the 20th where the results would be released in the UK. Heck I even have to mailed then my Results (But that was expected , wasn't it?)

So the 20th came and I went to college with Farhanah. Meet some friends, juniors, super juniors (?). Apparently no one resides at my room yet so yeah. It still belongs to me! Say Mrs. B and got my component grades. Missed A for Computing by a slight grade and I still don't understand how I got a B for Psychology with AB grade. Yeah if the B was at paper 1 which carries 2/3 of the total mark, sure I'll understand. But I got a B at paper 2 which carries 1/3 of the total mark!

Albeit that, Maths grade was horrible. Shocking and speechless but enough said. There is nothing I can do except to move on and strive to do better next time. I had it easy since the beginning of my education life so I guess this is where I fall and is reminded not to take things for granted.

At the end of the day, got back home at 6pm - ish. Check my UCAS, 2 rejections. Sadness engulfs me for a sec but it did not stay long. There are things to be done. I emailed Manchester regarding the 2 Accounting course available for clearing, Accounting (AAA) and Accounting, Management and Information System (AAB). Decided not to go for Management (Accounting and Finance) as the course structure is more towards Management. And then I called the universities, both Warwick and Manchester for Clearing. When I phoned Manchester, i asked about the Accounting course. Much to my dismay, they said it wasn't in their clearing list.

Shocked but I think I am getting used to it now so I called Warwick instead. Mine you, getting the line busy for a few hours and your mum starring at you isn't something pleasing. Manage my way through and ask them for the Management course. After 1/2 of complex stuff (Apparently my subjects had a minor problem, no science subject but later found out that Computing was a Science subject), they said that they will call me back.

And so the wait continues. The next day I got an email from Gay Matryniuk, Senior Undergraduate Admissions Administrator.

Dear Adrian

Further to your clearing enquiry yesterday, we cannot make you an offer for the BSc Accounting programme but may be able to offer you a place on the BA Accounting, Management and Information Systems programme. I would however, need to verify your IELTS certificate before I could confirm this. Please therefore scan and email your IELTS certificate to me as a matter of urgency.

So okay there is hope, I got a place! A bit paranoid about the bold may be but it went well later.

Fast forwarding the story they confirmed that I will have a place there. Now I'll just have to wait for UCAS and oh my didn't I wait and waited.

21 August till the 27th August and finally they change my Clearing status. This whole month has been full of empty days, non productive due to the word waiting. This has truly tested my patience

Another thing was with Sime Darby. I've called them to tell them that I got a place at Manchester.

Day 1: No one was there in the department.

Day 2: Kak Zerizan was away but Kak Intan was there. She reffered me to Kak Muja (email her as she was in Hong Kong at the moment). Wrote and emailed the letter.(I'm getting pretty good at this =D). Went back to sleep and when I woke up, a reply was already there. Kak Muja seems to be very efficient in replying emails. Thank God for that ^^.

Yes Adrian, you may proceed.

Best news I had. So everything is settled, with Sime Darby and with the University.

For now I have to wait again for my Visa letter to come.

Wish me luck~

P.S: Didn't i mention how I grow to hate the word 'wait'? And thanks Li li for the nice phone call. Really enlighten me to the life style in Manchester. =) I'll probably stay at that hall the following year. I think it might be a bit late to apply now.

2 more hours to go

As of now its 2 more hours till my results are out. Can't tell you how afraid I am. All my efforts are put into this and as well as my future I guess.

If I manage to g through this alive, I shall go and celebrate it with some Haagan Daaz ice cream.

If I don't....

I guess this post stops here >.< "

[Edit]

Well I didn't make it. Gosh, what am I suppose to do from now on? Fingers still kept cross

Of Pasar Malam and Farewells

Last Friday CK, LX and Me went to pasar malam at Jelutong there. Went there after watching Overheard at Queensbay Mall.

Some Pictures from the 'Night Market'

Today is Sunday and I went to my Uncle's funeral. Didn't really know the old chap well as he was quite a distant one but however we are still related. Only met him several times and I can daresay it was all during Chinese New Year.

Oh this is my sis and his boyfriend. Came back regarding the H1N1 case. He's staying over for the week.

Frustrated

The writer is now frustrated over something that should relaxs him. Its hard when people don't find common grounds and always assume that they are right when they are partially at fault. He wonders when everyone will learn to compromise and learn to accept each other's view in a humble way.

Perhaps he just met the wrong batch of people. Not everyone is bad and not everyone is good. Just a few rotten eggs in the basket.

Nevertheless when a problem arise, its better to confront. If you are unhappy with someone's actions, tell them, however so in a way which they could accept. You don't go yelling at them and make them feel all fired up. A calm discussion is a prefered discussion. Nothing would be solve if both stay firm on their grounds and don't learn to let in.

A problem not solve is one that will never and and will cause eternal chaos.

Thats my 2 cents.

Cheers.

PS: Will be updating soon about my life. Sorry for the long MIA session.

A week or two..

So where to start? Euphoria gathering was last week from Friday to Sunday. To describe it I would only use one word, AWESOME! Its nice to see some familiar face after a while, as well as to get the latest update on everyone you used to know.

Sugus is flying to U.S this September. He's going for MassCom although he has offer for International Relationships and Political Science. Parent's advise... Oh well, can't really argue with that right? All that I can do is just to wish him all the best in his future undertakings.

Friday night was practically a sleepless night. Although I slept at 5 a.m, most of us woke up at 7 a.m due to the sound of an accident down there on the road. Probably some drunken guy was driving around the alley. Only one vehicle was involved, as well as an unlucky traffic light post. Wuwu..

We headed of to KYS at 10 a.m but due to Malaysian time, the bus only arrive at 10.30 a.m. Le ang (Mr. Shaheran) was there waiting for us. He's still trying to be funny, although his sense of humour never hits me. He was shouting, Vietnam, Bangladesh, Indonesia etc. as we were boarding the bus. As though as we are some kind of immigrant =/.

Meeting up with the teachers are always fun. Though it has always been scary to meet up with our counsellor, Ms. Lai. Reason no. 1, our hair = =". You should see Serai's hair. From the back, you wouldn't even know he's a guy!

We had a short 'lecture' by Ms. Lai when she saw us. Cha'om hair was long, Eyen's hair is long and Affroe... mind you he looked like an Arab terrorist :D. Though its not wrong, we should set a good example to our juniors there, yadda yadda. There's truth in it but nevertheless, I don't really fancy having a haircut just to go visit my high school. As a matter of fact, if this was a rule, the numbers of KYSers visiting the school would decrease drastically. Just look at all of us!

Anyway, the day latter ended with a seafood dinner at Umbai. After that we headed back to the hotel. We went to McD Dataran Pahlawan with K.A. Sat on the grass somewhere at the dataran there but after a while we got thirsty. So we went back to McD and stayed there till 2am. Iylia was probably 'high' since this is the first time she was out this late. Her curfew is at 6.30 P.M! Mind you the poor soul. Luckily she got four handsome and macho bodyguards who are really alert that night (Apart from Sanjiv, his eyes were red but as soon as we say 'Let's head back to the room', his eyes immediately recover and turned back white).

Regarding my Driving lessons, I'm glad to say its coming to an end, hopefully. Taking my QTI this Friday. Wish me all the best ^^.

Cheers,

Adrian.

Not much time to update

You should be wondering dear friends. Its THE holiday and Adrian should have lots of things to rant about , as well as to share. However so my dear friends, the holidays have made me a bit lazier to write on my blog. And to the matter of fact, I noticed a lot of my college friends aren't blogging as much as they used to now. Perhaps blogging was just something to kill time back when we are at college? Perhaps so, perhaps not.

So what was new for the past few weeks?

I was franctically looking for a new game beside dotA. I do belief that spending time repeatedly killing noobs at TFT1 , Malaysia Room 70 , Singapore Room 30 (Those are the rooms that I normally go to when there isn't an InHouse Draft game or a Draft game.) will actually degrade my gameplay and make me bored. Much to the fact it already did and the joy of playing it is slowly leaving me. Everything is suppose to be moderate so I guess that is what happens when your routine is to sleep, eat, dota, movies and well, repeat the process.

I do get a few hangouts with my friends but most of the time they have their own life. So most of the time, what am I left with?

I went to watch Ice Age III last Sunday with Chee Kit. I can say I really miss that little guy going over the ice , franctically searching for his lost acorn. A ah, and the love story that goes along with it. It was an enjoyable movie, which gave me a few laughters. Something that Drag me to Hell didn't.

I have also watched Code Geass : Lelouch of the Rebellion R1 and R2. I decide to watch it on YouTube as downloading is too slow and I'm too stingy to go and buy the complete set. It will be over in 2 days and if I were to keep on buying like I did before, money would flow like it was going down a waterfall. And to consider the tight budget I currently have. Better not.

Today was a day spent with 3 friends. Omar and Radin, an aquintance from primary school and Daniel whom I met when I went out with Omar to Gurney a few years back. Radin picked us up at 6pm and we went to Queensbay Mall for our dinner and perhaps, something to do. Movies weren't interesting as we have all already watched Transformers II and Ice Age III. So it was dinner and whatever happens next would be decided later.

Dinners was at TGI Fridays as we needed free refills and didn't want to go to McD or Nandos. Besides, the seats and atmosphere were much more comfortable there. =) We spent time talking and talking and talking. Was a bit lost when they talked about scouts and PFS as it wasn't a part of my childhood experience due to the fact that I went to KYS instead. Sincerely speaking, sometimes, perhaps most of the time I still regret going to KYS. The reason for applying was never fulfilled and my attempts to leave it failed every single year.

The approximately 5 hours of talks and chilling let me learn a few things. First and foremost, I tend to be quiet when they were talking things outside my league. Football and sports, I don't really know anything as my interest in sports differs then theirs and I dislike football. I still don't understand the hype behind it.

Everyone is moving on with their life. Radin is doing a double degree at ANU (Economics and Accounting and Finance) and Omar is helping his dad at work with Programming and doing part time Photography. I wonder how's Jiun Mei doing? I haven't met her since Form 1 when I went to deliver her birthday present during the Chinese New Year Holiday. And Yi Ling? What's up with their life? I haven't heard from Jeffrey. The last time I met him was at Infinity Sungai Dua, where he was playing Dota and all I know was that he was planning to study Medicine.

How time flies. In another year's time I would turn 20. I a few months time I would be 19. Gosh my teenage years are almost over. Did I spent it well?

I used to deny the fact that Ms. Lai said that I was a bit introvert. Well back then I talked a lot and was very easy going and friendly. However, to think of it. Since when did I began to talk less? Right now, I'm just observing and listening other people's point of view.

Perhaps I'm a listener a learner.

In other words, I lean more to an introvert.

Gosh, is this really true?

Bleh, stop the nagging!

Today was just another day. Woke up at 8am and went for my driving lessons at 8.30am till 1pm. Need to do both the car and the motorcycle. Still grasping it well, however my car instructor today was pretty annoying, well the first one that is.

That look on his face. Gosh, the moment I stepped into the car he started nagging. Gosh give me a break. And well, mistakes follows after that. Tell me, who can concentrate with that constant nagging beside you. To add one, he would frequently grab the steering wheel so tightly that ended up being sort of a tug o war between me and him. Its enough that I couldn't concentrate with him around, he had to give me occasional shocks as well.

The prime time was when he told me this:

Wa ka lu kong, lu be hua hi wa , lu be hua hi wa lang eh kong si, lu mian ka wa lang ook.

Lu si lai ai ook chia, lu be hua hi wa, a ne kuan mian lai ka wa lang ook.

Translation:

I'm telling you, if you can't look up on me and this company, you don't have to learn with us.

You are here to learn how to drive, if you can't look up on me, then you don't have to come and learn with us.

I refuse to use the word respect in the translation. Or rather was, he was implying I should look up to him, bow down to him kinda thing. Listen to his every word.

Respect have to be earn, not demanded.

I'm okay if you want to teach me but however, please don't make me stress out with the constant nagging.

And I thought I escape this once i left home, although mum has been nagging less often.

However so, i try to be polite to him. Every time I do a step like changing the gear, releasing the clutch, steering the wheel, I would ask him.

Is this correct uncle?

Then he would have that smile.. of satisfaction.

However after I'm done with my lesson, I had a quiet time to ponder on it. Perhaps it’s just the way he does thing. Can't blame him for that can't I?

However I'm not going to have him as my instructor. I'm worried due to constant nagging I might run over something.

So fret not... the drivers in Penang are still safe, from me.

For now

Just Another Day

Its seems like there is nothing interesting happening to blog about.

Transformers was a blast, however with much of the reviews flying around. I bet you don't want to read another here, don't you?

So I'll shall save that trouble of scribbling and perhaps write something useful.

Oh wait, I have nothing to write remember?

Gosh, this is killing me!

Anyway, all the best to x|GgT , Gove Give Talent Extreme againts their match in the AnS tournament againts Leap tonight.

3 months of ???

Back at Home.....

Chilling with friends.....

Missing you......

What else?

Prom Night

4pm... Only one hour forty five minutes more before departing to Renaissance Hotel in KL.
That means less than 120 minutes to prepare. @@

Suit - Checked
Shoes - Checked
Tie - Checked
Tie Pin - Checked
Hair -.........

Ok, hair was a bit of a problem. Should have trimmed it and make it less thick at the back so it could stand. > . <

Part 1, spend 30 minutes on it. Failed.

The result, a messy and oily hair with lots of gel and clay.

>.<

Tian Feng didn't like it.

Okay, reached the hotel at around 7pm. Time for Part 2.

Washed my hair twice there. Imagine using the sink to wash my hair and the hand dryer to dry my hair. Creative or pathetic?

Part 2,

It didn't stand up, so back to the usual. Thanks to Kok Din for trying. =)
However, still got a lot of clay.

So it was time to wait for my partner, can't wait to see how she looked like.

Tick Tock Tick Tock...

Audrey came with Nantini and Iylia, the three of them looked superb.

Still waiting for my date...

Saw Adline, where is my Tian Feng >.<..

Tick Tock Tick Tock....

Finally, there she is! Wee~~~

My jaws practically dropped when I saw her. She looks wonderful and beautiful! So sweet and well how should I put it? Gorgeous! She was wearing the shawl that I gave her. Thankfully it fits her dress perfectly well.

Its dinner time, appetizers?

Was a bit nervous during the dinner. I was afraid I would make a fool of myself. As a matter of fact, I did. I drop the knife and somehow almost dirtied my spoon, but luckily I didn't.

It went well until the dance floor was open, guess what music did they put on?

Disco music!

Dang, I don't really dance that. Was expecting waltz or ballad... oh bother. =/

So some of us went out and guessed what we found? A piano!!!

Maaba, our pianist went to play for us. His diploma exam piece. Can't remember the title but the one by Chopin was superb!

The night went on. Everyone was practically sticking closely to their date.

Somehow I sense you all are looking at me. Yeah its hard to believe, and I was lying. Here’s the truth.

Some where running around, ditching their dates. But 99% of the people there okay?



The Garrage Band Geeks with their Performance




Kok Din and Jolene, aren't they sweet?



From the right : Joel, Isa, Vellu, Ken, Jeshua, Jeven and Me

Ching and I

However, I’m glad that my partner was always beside me, or at least have the courtesy to tell me where she is going. ^^

I wish the night could last a bit longer. I will cherish this time together with you.

You looked beautiful tonight, and that image will be forever imprinted in my mind.

Thanks for the night!

The last strive ain't what it used to be. 

I still remember the days when we would say goodbye to each other, making a long long line from the Great Hall all the way to the Academic block, where the juniors will give the seniors their blessing and final goodbyes and the seniors will apologize for all the things that they did.

It was a sentimental event, which lasted around two hours. People were crying inside 0ut, patting each other on the back, exchanging hugs and some word of wisdom. 

You knew deep inside that from there onwards, you'll go on a different path. These are the people you spend you 5 years with, wrecking havoc and creating tantrum in the classroom. 

The final goodbye.

But for now, its just another goodbye. I've learnt to leave with hellos and goodbyes. People come and people go, but the impact they made in my life would last forever, untainted by time. Perhaps this time it wasn't so bad. After three months, hopefully we will meet each other in the UK, in our own respective university. However for some, they will still stay in this 'prison', grueling themselves for yet another year.

Friends are forever, just as diamonds are forever.

Lets all instill that camaraderie spirit in us.

Cheers. ^^  

Tonight the moon is lonely

Its 2am when I woke up.

Apparently I fell asleep in Daniel’s chalet.

Was very blur due to the fact that my brain actually needs time to warm itself up before I can arrange my thoughts.

Memories were blurry. It’s vague, I can’t remember what that has happen. Was walking around and went to Ken’s chalet. Apparently Jesh, Joel, Dom, Ken and Akmal were talking about something.

Mind still blur.

All I know was that I need to go back to my room. My dear old and faithful room for the past 17 months and a half. A place I called my own while I am in KYUEM.

Walk past the field as I usually do in the middle of the night. Tonight the moon is lonely. The sky was shrouded with clouds. 3 distant lights shone from a far but they are just lights from satellites, not stars.

Since the beginning of my study here, I always wanted to lie down at the field. Just to gaze at Mother Nature, the stars and the moon, to feel the grass brushing through my body. To just laze around.

Tonight I did it.

But as I do, I wonder.

Does the moon ever feel lonely at time? In this vast galaxy, there are plenty of stars and planets. However so, they are so far apart. The moon can only gaze at them from a far, talking in silence.

As I write this entry, I would like to dedicate it to the moon, the lonely moon.

17 again?

Tian Feng was telling me about this movie the other day. About being 17 all over again, living the past again and not regretting a single thing. 

For me, the past shapes who I am today. Sincerely, I would like to amend a few things that I did in the past but the past is the past. We just have to learn to live with it. 

I love this saying: 

“You can either choose to dwell in the past or live in the present.” 

What do we choose? Do we reminiscent over the past, dwell in it or do we learn our mistakes from the past and avoid making stupid and silly decisions in the present as well as the future?

Its funny how history is suppose to teach us about the past, to learn and to yield knowledge from past works and surprisingly a lot of us still relive those incidents in history in our very own way. Perhaps mankind does not learn from making mistakes or is it just because of the thrill of doing something, even if the consequences are disastrous. Perhaps certain things, we just have to live it for our self. To kindle the flame before getting burned. To feel the pain.

The fool learns from their mistakes, the wise learn from the mistakes of the fools. Which is true? The fool or the wise? If you have never been through it, it’s just theoretically true, probably with a bit of evidence but life is full of wonders. It’s unpredictable and that makes life interesting. If life was a mathematical equation of some sort, with a define sets of answers, then what is the purpose of living life? Is it just to discover those answer and then life is over for us? 

There are many solutions to a problem, perhaps many methods. We just have to find one that suits us best. Some maybe inappropriate for you where else it’s the perfect solution for others. If everyone uses the same method, do everything the same, what different do we have from something being programmed e.g. robots? They do everything similarly till there is nothing unique about them. 

Maths is defined to find solutions, approximations to some degree. When I first realised it, I lost interest in it being the most definite thing that I could learn. In its case, it is true for most , probably 99.99% of problems but where is that 0.01%?

This is why I pursue to look for a more definite explanation. I still love Maths, but not as much as I used to. 

Some  say that it’s useless to worry about the small percentile. Useless as it may seem, it’s in my nature to be curious. I would pretty like everything to be defined, to be known to me. Where else people would disregard that small portion of life, I would pursue on it. Besides, someone would solve the other 99.99% for me, so why bother doing extra work? :D. 

Perhaps this is one of the bits of the puzzle of life which I have to discover.

Perhaps it’s my life purpose to know.

Perhaps and just perhaps I’m just being persistent,

In something uncertain.

For the only thing certain about life is uncertainty. 

Intriguing as it is, humans are still humans. Christian belief that God created humans in his own image. We are sent to earth in order to learn, to differentiate between right and wrong, to understand. Buddhist believes in achieving enlightenment. To understand and to be free from pain and suffering.

 

Therefore, is it necessary for us : 

To experience sadness before happiness?

To experience pain before relief?

To make the wrong choice before the right?

To be a sinner before righteousness?

To be lost before being found?

Take some time to ponder and perhaps, those enfeebled mind of ours might be able to comprehend all these mystery. 

PS: To Tian Feng, sorry for making you worried over such a silly stuff. I told you it wasn’t important >_<”.

Counting days

8 days to Prom...

12 Days till Graduation....

3 Months of Holidays

I'll gonna miss a lot of people.  

Tag

Its weird how sometimes the Publish Post button is Missing from the 'Create Post Page'

Got tag by Vilaiwan  

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?

- Err, cheek?

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ? 

- Drowsy, but happy to hear a voice that keeps me going.  

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ? 

- When was the last person I took photo with? Hmm I guess it might be during the college birthday. Kok Din I suppose.  

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled ? 

- Hard question, Sometimes I get NO for an answer but normally its a YES but I have to do my part of the bargain.  

5. Will you ever donate blood ?

- Yes, someday when needles are the least of my fears. 

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?

- Yes.  

7. Do you want someone to be dead ? 

- No  

8. What does your last text message say ? 

- something pretty long that you shouldn't know.

9. What are you thinking right now ? 

- the same think that I'm thinking every second of the day  

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now ? - yes  

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ? - 10pm ^^ had to wake up early today to study.  

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ? 

- Err, my mum buy my formal shirts. I'm in college now.  

13. Is someone on your mind right now ? 

- Refer to question 9 or 10.  

14. Who was the last person who texted you ? 

- Refer to question 13  

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz :  

1. omar  

2. tian feng 

3. charles 

4. maalini 

5. zaf 

6. wai shan 

7. ikmal 

8. shar linn 

9. sheldon 

10. audrey  

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ? 

-Oh I know, I know! *wink*  

16. Is no.3 a male or a female ? 

- Male  

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good? 

- Well they would have to be a gay for that to happen.  

18. What is no.1 studying about ? - US Foundation  

19. When was the last time you chatted with them ? -days, months and weeks  

20.Is no.4 single ? -yes.i think.  

21. Say something about no.2. - Wonderful ^^  

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together ? 

-They don't even know each other, but both are already taken..  

23. Describe no.9 - CoD  

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ? 

-Watch, take a pop corn. Its probably verbal anyway. I can learn some English while I'm at it.  

25. Do you like no.8 ? -Well I don't hate her okay. Few make it to my 'Hate list'

=)

Shades of red, shades of yellow,

Mix together, another appears,

The colour a new, shines brightly,

Lies beneath the orange moon.

Distance unknown, a traveler's tale,

One wanders east, another wanders west,

Both dragging along the path,

Remain the same, that same old spot.

Accounting Paper 1 is over, so AS Accounting is officially over! Whats left now is A2 Accounting and Economics. Study Adrian Study! 

Kono, MadE MadE MadE!!

Rewind and Play

12 years ago….

Mandarin was my medium of communication during my early years.

It’s funny how a small incident back then can changed everything.

I swore never to touch Mandarin ever again. I hated it for the troubles it caused me. The infinite nagging, comparison to my siblings and my future if I couldn’t get 100% in my exams now, what will happen to me in primary school and as well as in the future?

Years I evaded that language. I even told Sensei Aoki Mikiko that I didn’t want to learn Kanji as it was Mandarin. Dialect was all that I used. To be frank, Hokkien and Cantonese was all I need to survive in Penang and KL. English was the main lingua franca so I’ll guess I survive till the end without it.

Mandarin, the most spoke language in this world.

Present day…..

I’m trying my best to relearn it again. It seems hard but I believe that where there is a will, there is a way.

I’m lucky to have a great teacher that doesn’t mind when I ask the same question three times in the row. =) (Don’t be angry if I ask the fourth time ^_^)

I’m lucky that she’s the one teaching me, bearing with all my nonsense and correcting me every now and then.

At some times, some laughter had to be shared. However, I am trying to make it a two sided joke instead of a one way rattling of the funny bone.

To persevere and strives towards the future, together as one.

Cloud Nine

Euphoric, fantastic. I'm in the clouds today.

Perhaps

I stood there as eternity burned before me. Ashes of people once known to me were flying, like crumpled sand in a sandstorm. 

At that point, memories of the past engulfed me like fire.

Guilt, Compassion, Love, Sorrow, Happiness, Anger, Hatred.. 

All were brushing pass me. My whole life was replayed before my eyes. 

Did I felt regret over the things which I have done?

Yes.

Did I felt regret for things that I never pursue? 

Yes .

Suddenly, all those images and feelings were gone. Eternity as well faded away. The scenery changed into something darker. 

A labyrinth. A maze.

I look around me as the light grew dimmer. Darkness was crowding in, and shadows begins to lurk. I hasten my steps and began wandering. 

To the left....

And to the right...

Left...... Right..... Right.... Left....

Where is my destination?

I do not know.

Why am I here?

I do not know.

This feeling, suppressed in me. It feels like its about to burst, but yet it is not time. For now, the shades rules the realm.

Suddenly, I reach a dead end. A solid door with ancient carvings on it. I see a man, holding a bird in its hand. Next to it were inscription with words of the old.

"To gain another, one must first lose thyself,

To seek one's heart desire, undo the cradle of life,

To become one, to be full, one must understand......."

I gasped at the inscription. 

It was incomplete.

Understand what? 

I look around , distracted by a figure.

Great! There is a level. Perhaps thats the key to open the door.

A weak smile curved on my face as I reach out my hands to pull the level. A last to my dismay, my hand went through it. It was as if it was just a projectile, there to fool man.

I looked around, half ranting, half sulking. And then I saw,

Next to the level was yet another inscription.

"Only those worthy will pass."

Am I not worthy, or is it not time? 

For a moment I sat down to ponder. Time revolves around me, aging my surrounding as I stayed there, motionless. My hair grew, snakelike and long. Black strands turned into grey, white hair. A mixture of both. The labyrinth fade away and what was left was a meadow, full with daisy at the very far end.

At that moment, I woke up into reality. 

Perhaps it was only a dream. 

Perhaps it was my sub conscious telling me something.

Perhaps, just maybe,

It was nothing.

 

Realised

The zephyr blows on top the misty peak,

Clearing the fog that clutters his mind,

For once the air is clear,

For once the sun can be seen.

Its has come to my conscious that some thing may never happen, while some might just happen. In the attempt to clarify things, I have found that hope can go in some directions, while remain false in most.

Things has been different for me. Breaking some principles I have set back when I was young, perhaps its time for a change? Things must flow with time, as well as life principles I suppose. Something are just not applicable anymore.

Life Saver

Dishwasher soap          = NO!

Dynamo                         = NO!

Ink Stain Removal       = Partially, so NO!

Clorox                            = YES

Love Capiche?

The World revolve at its axis,
Ignorant of time and space,
The shadow comes and goes,
Leaving trails behind it.


Memories fade away,
T'was life was found,
Refreshed a new,
Simplicity at its least.

For once the earth stood still,
For once time shall stop,
For once man was reborn,
For once everything is new.


Unknown path freshens the mind,
Bedazzled by the ants of life,
In this moment he seeks wonders,
Close to his heart, the answer was found.

Well yesterday I was cycling with Daniel and Maalini. On our way back we stumble onto some cats which apparently just jumped down from the roof of the guard house. Truthfully, I despise cats.

The Reasons?

Some cats bullied my dog when it was still a puppy, and it was limping afterwards for 2 weeks. It was actually a stray dog (We weren't allow to keep dogs at our housing area =/ ) but it slept in front of my house (we sorta made a house for it), played with me the whole time and comes running towards me when I'm done with school until I got realy attached to it.

So imagine the sadness that I had, when poor little Snowy came to me, limping.

Back to the cats. When we looked up, we saw two kittens. A bit adorable (But I still won't keep them as my pets), so we took out our phones to snap a photo of it. Probably they are used to paparazzi, and the two little kitten actually POSED! They were wandering around but when our camera phones were out, they stood by each other and looked down. They only went away when we kept our phones.




These were the two kittens in which the parent left them both on the roof.

Adorable, capiche?

Later that night I was rummaging through Azfar's phone for songs, he did the same to mine. Found this song I have realy liked for a long time and finnaly, I know the title!

Its 1234 by Plain White T's

Enjoy the lyrics

1-2-1-2-3-4

Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make it all better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even when I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you

You make it easy
Its easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you

There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you

Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4

There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you

There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you

You make it easy
It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you

There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you) I love you

A new Era perhaps?

For the next few post, I've decided to write what I feel in poetry. So bear with this 'poet' who sucks at it. >_<"

-Untitled -

The Wind that blows from the Netherlands,

Travels west in search of vanity,

Lost, dumbfold with no sense of direction,

It breezes wildly towards the west.

Distance unknown, time stops,

Withers gently , weak and fragile,

The flowers from the peak of Himalayas,

A companion for two.

Dash of red, dash of yellow,

A scent so gentle, yet unknown,

Clouded in a crystal ball,

Bestowed upon the gypsy girl.

Wandering isle, clouded in mist,

A date to beckon, do ye not agree?

A father to many, a son to none,

Leaves a silver trail, for many to follow.

And yet the wind blows in vain,

Through the Labyrinth of Life,

Seeking, yet not seeking,

A puzzle of Life

I now declare an open invitation to whosoever that would like to decipher this post. :D

A collection of something, as if.

Part 1

 

Sadness before Happiness,

Fall before Rising,

Sick before Well,

Broken before Completed.

 

It seems in an everyday life, or perhaps in life itself generally, things come in pairs. Sometimes in ways which we could not fathom or predict, it just is.

 

There are always two (or perhaps more) views or perception to a point, condition, and situation etcetera etcetera. However, can you stand on both sides? The answer is unique to each individual as some can see from both sides while others remain a uno perspective.

 

For me, after several years of handling problems, I've realised that in the eye of the storm, everyone holds a bit of responsibility towards the problem. You can never say it’s entirely someone's fault as other people's actions might prompt another person's action which will repeat itself in a long and whirly cycle which will result in someone making a wrong decision giving way for hell to break lose on earth.

Therefore in my opinion, everyone should at least bear a bit of responsibility when a problem occurs and not just blame it entirely on an individual, or perhaps a group of individuals. You might never know, but you might be the butterfly in the whole storm metaphor.

 

Things was going well back in the old days, as the other party would be sensible to listen and discuss to find the root of the problem and thus later on a solution. However, not all will do that. They are the kind that could not accept themselves at wrong, wanting to be perfect, in denial kind of person. They escape from problems by changing the subject and start making excuses just for a cover up. Sounds familiar? We all do know this kind of person in our life. If not now, perhaps in the future.

 

I have to admit that when I was young, I used to be that kind of person. However, lying and making up stories tend to lead to more problems or if it was solve, it is at other's people expenses. The innocent if you want to name it. Twas the time I learnt to change, to listen, to negotiate and to accept people's opinion on situation. See it as a whole and not just judge it from one side. 

 

Ponder for a while and think. Will you feel good if you escape your verdict at other's people's expenses? If you do, then I have nothing to say. Those people should have never have existed.

 

I would say that I would be happy if I have my friend to defend for me. Two is better than one however there lies truth in the saying ' Too many cooks spoils the broth'. Take a while and ponder, are your action justified and is the right thing to do? Will this has any adverse on my friend? I know if someone hurt your friend, the easiest way is to seek revenge and hurt him/her back. An eye for and eye, a tooth for a tooth, insult for insult ... yadda yadda. 

 

But seriously do use God's greatest gift to mankind, the ability to think. You do have to realise that the person who you are seeking revenge have friends to. If he/she thinks the same way, he/she will be the next to seek revenge and the cycle will continue with your friend and their friend.

 

Let those who are involved solve their own problem. It’s okay to seek advice but once you stepped in verbally or physically. You're in for a tough show.

 

Part 2

 

Venturing near the end of my college life, it seems that it was not exactly what I've always dreamt back in high school. As days past and season changes, life unfolds itself, mysteriously as it used to.

 

Throughout these 18 months, 

 

Did I grow?

Did I become a better person?

 

Have I make an impact to the world, or perhaps the society around me?

Have I become wiser?

 

Will I remember these memories?

Will I succumb to the sins in life? 

 

Questions unfolded,

Waiting to be answered,

In the eyes of the Almighty,

I seek thy guidance,

For one was lost,

For another shall be found,

In dire situation lies the challenge,

A challenge of worthiness,

In the eyes of the beholder.

 

To wrap things up,

 

Ye are who ye seek to be, nonetheless greater, nonetheless stronger.