Fairy Tale?

Kah Yean posted this link on Facebook. I like how harmonize it was with the violin and trumpet. Really reminds me of the time spend in Studio 1 back in KYS. =')

This song has always affected me, into believing that fairy tales can exist. Even now as I am losing hope, it gives me the strength to go on, to believe that it still exist somewhere.

PS: Mute the song track on the right panel of this blog first. =)

White bats

I was dancing on the dance floor,

Pumped with adrenaline and carefree though I wonder why,

I wasn't like this the year before,

Oh wait, there isn't any guilt this time,

Nothing to care for, nothing to worry about,

I'm single.

Does it always feels this awesome?

And I have chosen to ignore it for so long?

And then there came a vision of a 'white bat',

As I close my eyes to the rhythm of the floor,

And I dance with you, smiling.

Perhaps a lie isn't so bad after all.

=)

For once I smile in months

PS: Happy Birthday Sash! Hope you enjoy the Russian Standard I bought you. And remember, its only for you. NO ONE ELSE should take a sip out of it!

Of Paramore and the most expensive breakup so far =)

19th November 2010

Paramore came. We went. Its AWESOME!
Opening act was great with B.O.B around and when its the last song for him (Yup you guessed it!), its Airplane! Hayley came in with a very thick white coat. Very unusual but listening to it live, really makes me wanna cry. The song Airplane means so much to me as it brings back memories, as well as hopes I used to have.

The rest of it was simply singing to the songs I knew, even though I did not know most of the song's titles. But hey, what can you expect from someone that doesn't really follow up on artist and so on, but just generally likes music but not really into it.

For me, music is a part of life and I listen to those that affect me the most at various part of my life. Happy, Emo, Sad, Mad.. anything. Music simply is.

Will post more about it when I have time =) As well as upload some pictures.

Next up, expensive breakup. @.@

I need something else to focus my mind on, instead of just looking and thinking about it each and everyday. Since I came back to Manchester, I thought Uni work would be sufficient to keep my mind off it, but apparently not. Spare time, in between, whenever I see stuffs, I'll think of last year memories that I had while walking past those places. The 'phone call rush', chasing buses or simply was a place I normally walk past at 4pm (11pm-12am MY Time) when I'm calling.

I seriously needed something new, somewhere that I am not familiar with.

Which ended up with Magic The Gathering. >.< I last played this game 3 years ago in high school. Was into casual tournaments for a while FNM (Friday Night Magic) for quite some time and the best ever achievement I ever had was 2nd place (after Ban Lee Lim). Almost gotten first once! And you know how addictive it is to buy cards.

Let me put it this way, A pack of cards which contains 15 random cards. My hands get itchy just by thinking of it. I want to open packs and see what that I manage to pull out from the booster pack. And when buying the whole box is way cheaper, things just got worse.

Its a never ending cycle, the more I buy, the more I want to buy. =/ Thats why I stopped last time. Its getting too expensive for me to play. But now with all the money I have, money seem not to be the issue.

I'm getting poorer and poorer each day but well, it does do its job fairly well at making me think of cards instead of people =).

Gotta sign off now, still need to prepare my profile for MBS new website. I'm amazed they are making a student profile for the undergraduate page. Its an honour that they selected me =)

After a while =)

I've tend not to erase someone from my memories even when I want to. I still remember the last one that I said so was to Ika. =) I really didn't want to think about it, but after all this years I've realised, I just couldn't stop. Not in that particular way but when I was with Tian Feng, I used to compare the two all the time.

That is just because they are the exact opposite of each other.

One with a I don't care attitude, its up to you,

One cares absolutely about everything, always in control,

One texts a lot, the other doesn't,

One revere in contact, the other in mind.,

But what they both share in common was their beautiful smiles.

After 5 months, I thought it would be better now. At least we can talk a bit right? However its still the usual yes, no , urm. And I'm always the one who initiates the conversation. I don't blame anyway, people takes time.

I have given up hope on getting her back and just plan to leave it as time passes by. 

But I don't know why I still feel sad whenever I see her uncomfortable. I still do worry a lot.

But I can't deny that it is a wonderful experience, to be just in the mind.

I've learnt quite a lot. Its about giving in, take one step behind from both sides.

If you have the will to it, no one could stop you. Its just that my will to have and the will to protect contradicts each other.

I think I have continue to care for my ex-es, which is just Ika and Tian Feng whether I realised it or not. Its just a subconscious effect I suppose.

But one think, I learn from my mistakes. And looking back since 2007, how stupid have I been. Running away from my girlfriend just because I could stand 'not being free' and pressure from my mum, trying to fall in love again just to escape the previous one, waiting just because I hope that it will be okay.

2009 was great, I took it slow. But when its time whether you lose it or fight for it. I choose to fight for it despite my confusions whether its true or not. I glad I did, otherwise I wouldn't have grown mentally.  

Summer 2010 was more of a soul searching time for me. A part from the vacation trips, I made an effort to see all the people that I have once had crushes for, or I have been in a relationship with.

It showed me how I have change throughout the years, what lies I have been telling myself, what mistakes I have done and the most important one, reigniting the memories of the past.

I am what I am today, because of my past as well as my present.

If I were to relive the past again, I think I'll still make the same decision I have made back then. I need it in order to grow and understand. Otherwise the current Adrian will be just a foolish person.

To live, learn and die =)

Isn't that what its all about?