Letting it go

It's fading,

The passion sublime,

The memories kept,

In its infinite care.

I look elsewhere,

Distracting myself from you,

I try to look strong,

Simply because I have to.

Each day I let it go,

Little by little,

Till its nearly gone,

But I know one thing.

I will only truly let go,

When the time has pass,

And I meet you face to face,

And tell you 'I'm over with it'

=)

Currently in Malacca and will then move on to Johor to see Zaffy! =D

This is gonna be Legen.....*Wait for it*..... Dary!

PS: HIMYM, Please come out as soon as possible with a new season!

Muse- Time is Running Out

A classic song... Oh why do you have to do it in MANCHESTER on the 4th of SEPTEMBER? I'm not back in England yet!

I think I'm drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
that you've created

you're something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

you will be the death of me
you will be the death of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
but I'm addicted

now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
you'd never dream of
breaking this fixation

you will squeeze the life out of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this?
ooooohh

you will suck the life out of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
ooooohh

Books =)

Rereading classics that I have once read before:

The Zahir, The Witch of Portobello, 5 people you meet in Heaven, For one more day =)

Really helps me a lot!

Thank you!

I'm all out of love

Air Supply I'm all out of love

(Lyrics)

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know


Chorus:
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong


I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone


Chorus


Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?


Chorus(3x)

Category:

1 year and 27 days...

It has ended, after 1 year and 27 days. I couldn't not express how much joy it brings me when I was with you, the strength you gave me, you are the drive that pushes me to go beyond my limits, the one that had taught and made me to be more patient, to learn about sacrifices, to see things in someone's else perspective.

I have seen this coming. Twice it has happen in the past and I cannot stop you from doing what you want. I respect that decision and will let it go, as it’s your happiness at stake.

I have grown; maybe a little mature than I used to be. I hate feeling so helpless, so out of control. I used to hate that, but I’ve learn that you cannot have everything in life. There are things you must compromise and share. I have learnt a lot from you and I hope I can use this knowledge for my future.

People find excuses for things they wish to avoid, to make them feel complacent. There should never be any excuses, just reasons. Reasons are solid things which provide facts and drive a person. Excuses are just rambling matter, like sand waiting to be washed by the tide.

Even though I refuse to accept excuses, I cannot change an individual by mere force alone. If there is no will, nothing can be achieved. The problem is not you yourself, but I would like to point out (Disclaimer: If you don’t mind in my p.o.v) that its your refusal to change which is the problem. You find excuses to justify your actions even when it has not happen yet and the future is so uncertain. This is what I can’t bring myself to forgive as I find it foolish and unacceptable (Sorry for this but I have to say it).

I am not sure if I can remain friends. In the past I have succeeded but I can’t guarantee it will happen again.

I feel like I am cursed in a relationship. When I see happiness there’s always this obstacle that I could not overcome because the solution often not lies with another. First, with my parents, now with you. I am like the leaves on a tree, swaying as the wind directs me, not having my own particular will.

The reason why I made that promise to myself is not because I want to give up loving another anymore, or to give up in falling in love again. Nor it was solely to protect my heart, but because I hate not being in control. Love is something that I cannot control, and I am a coward. I rather avoid things that I couldn’t control rather than to face it.

I can do a lot of things, to learn, to grow, to give in, and to compromise and lots more. But it is too much for me, the uncertainty is too great. I dare not risk losing control of myself again. Neither do I dare to commit anymore.

Therefore as I say ‘I love you’ for the last time, I bid adieu to LOVE. Thou has taught me many things and a man could not learn if he does not suffer. Man can know no good without evil, see no light without darkness.

Title : Something that I could never have

And I have felt,

A presence that disturb me with the joy,

Of elevated thoughts, a sense sublime,

Of something far more deeply inter-fused,

Whose dwelling is the light of the setting sun,

And the round ocean and the living air,

And the blue sky, and in the mind of man,

A motion and a spirit, that impels both the body and soul,

Something that I could never have,

A hopeless being

Start written on Novemb

er 19th 2009, completed on June 24th 2010

See Tian Feng, let us now be just friends.

I'll will remember you like a falling maple leaf in the autumn. Gently and temporary.

The first picture of you which I'm allowed to have =)

Thai Kok

Will be in Thailand for the next few days =).

A pinch of sadness a whole lot of happiness. Sometimes we are just too focus on that little pinch of sadness till we are unable to see the little blessings around us.

I'm happy to be loved/liked, to be missed, to be able to see, and to be continue my very existent in this complex world. However I should start looking at the simplicity rather than the complexity.

A puzzle cannot be solved if I keep on thinking that its hard right? Neither can it be solved if I kept on thinking that its easy, I need moderation.

Jiayou Adrian! Ganbatte ne!