Random

I still recall Mel asking me why do you want to work in finance/account. You can never do a good/great job at it. You are expected to have everything perfect, without making any mistakes.

No matter how good are at it, its expected that you are suppose to be that good.

But when the mistakes are spotted, hells runs loose.

._. I've learnt my lesson. January is Monthly closing as usual, Quarter and Mid-Year GFA. Thanks Group Finance for giving us extra jobs T_T.

Anyway, I need to find something to do soon. Ro2 is only going live on 27th so I need something to occupy my time till then.

Any suggestions?

1st Doctor trip in 4 years ;)

I've never been to the NHS for a treatment the entire 3 years I was in the UK. Water, bland food and plenty of rest was what I always took when I was sick, and Lemsip, can't forget about Lemsip. One of the most soothing solution of colds.

This morning I woke up at 6 a.m vomiting. I didn't wake up with the feeling of wanting to vomit, I just woke up and puke right away. You could say the puke woke me up.  >.<

It went for a while and when I thought it was over, I went back to sleep. At 8 a.m my usual time for waking up, I went and puke again. When that was over, I was so tired that I don't think I can go to work, so I call in sick. Weee, first MC in four years! (Trying to be excited about it, I still remember that I used to take loads in KYS an KYUEM.)

Went to the clinic at 8.15 a.m but it was still closed. Oh well, back to bed then.

Anyway eventually I woke up and went to see the doctor. She was in her early 40s I think. Anyway to cut to the chase, she asked me whats wrong, and told me briefly what could be wrong, asked me do I need a MC and said goodbye. No hassle, no bothersome checkup and no problem getting the MC. Sounds good right?

No, not really to me.

She appears to be hurrying of to somewhere else. I was given a brief description, not a detailed one, and my questions were cut off shortly before I even finish it. And about the MC, I know I needed it, but the way she was giving it to me was like she would give it to anyone whether they are really sick or pretending to be sick.

Which I am kind of disappointed with, I might be making a mountain out of a molehill here but if you do not check your patient properly and just give them the basic medicine, is that really proper? Medicine isn't really a thing to be meddle with.

='( Sorry for the rambling. On the bright side, I had no urgent outstanding matters at work and I get to rest the entire day.

=) Toodles!

Somewhere only I know....

I miss listening to Lifehouse.

I miss the girl who proposed (to her now husband) during the concert. 

I miss being unable to keep my eyes of you.

I miss being alive.

I still remember twas the time, where Jason Wade would sing and we would sing along with him. Lovely! <3 p="p">
Work has been just work, started to laze a bit and there during the off peak period. Seems just right for me to enjoy after my double dosage of bad luck.

1: Room flooded, laptop damaged and some of my previous book.

2: A few days later, got hit by a Vios from the back. Car is currently in the workshop awaiting claims.  I can't drive till further notice. Sucks right? I better get it back before closing.

Its been a while...

I heard it in your voice when your love died
On a telephone connection stretching miles and miles of wire
You said it was over and then cried and cried
You were gone before I said goodbye

I don't like to think it is true
That distance came between us like a knife and cut right through
Where did we go wrong and let it all undo?
The only one I ever loved was you
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/k/kina_grannis/stay_just_a_little.html ]
Would you stay just a little, my love?
Would you sway just a little, my love?
Because the hole in the middle of my heart needs filling up
If you stay just a little, that's enough

It kills me as I lay awake at night
Remembering the last kiss that we shared doesn't feel right
Is it impossible for me to win this fight?
Keep you a little longer in my life

Its been a while since I last listen to Kina. Finding some of her older songs. I'm finally caught up with my reading, those books on my shelf requires my absolute attention and I've been ignoring them for a while now.

Feels good to sit back and read again. Now I just need to find a private corner to read, or perhaps a lake/forest (But where would you find one in Subang? Maybe I'll go Shah Alam where there are a lot of trees but I still need an open park.

*To do list: 

1. Read out in the open.
2. Bring bug sprays just incase cause you know how reading outdoor in Malaysia is.
3. If the above fails, just go read at Starbucks.

Work life

Its been a rough transition, leaving the comfort zone of being a student and entering the working life. 10 more days till payday, seems pretty much 'something' to look forward to.

Life as an accountant is pretty routine. Thank goodness I got whacky and crazy team mates and bosses that would joke around and help ease the tension. Where's the boredom you may ask? Its not that I;m not bored doing the same routine everyday month, but its that we are rushing against time every single time and feeling frustrated about people or the system that we don't have time to think how boring it is.

Welcome to the life where you revolve around the clock. Tick tock tick tock the time is ticking and you gotta submit your work.

Welcome to my life ;)

#On a different note, Subang is pretty cool. =P

Dear you,

Dear you,

Its funny how calming it felt after all this year. I don't have to do anything special or extra ordinary when I'm with you. Just sitting next to you, being close gives me the warmest feeling ever. I like it this way. Even if things never work out between the two of us, know that its the giggly feeling that will always remain.

Yours truly,
Me.

On a different note, I asked Vanice on how much it cost for a Chinese wedding. Her expression was priceless as she stare at me with a very strange look like if that question was even legit.

The reason behind this was that it was bugging me for quite some time. If Malay wedding cost up to 20-30k for a decent one. How much would a Chinese wedding be? O_O. Good think I will only plan to settle down in 10-12 years time, if I ever decide to settle down. Single does have its perks ;)

Besides, I have to get all the necessity things first.

Gargh, too much stuffs to think about. I'll just stay the way I am. Whatever that is bound to happen, will happen. I'll put a little thought to it when I'm 28, the age I planned to get married when I was little.

## Sidenote : All the best Ika ;) I know you'll do great in Warwick! Enjoy the best of your years there!
                     And Julia! Go go =P 加油！

言い訳 Maybe

There are probably too many excuses in my life. Things that I should do but fear of the occasional maybe or what if. But alas, things are starting to unscramble and I'm seeing my course again.

It has been an upside down, topsy turvy year so far. With things that I wish had never happen and it left a deep scar inside of me.

Gonna start work at Sime Darby Motors, Glenmarie soon. Still hope its the right place to be. Felt bad about Plantation and Healthcare but I guess its just about the choice I made 4 years ago when I was in college, that Motors will be the place that I want to start at.

I'll be seeing some old face there, Melissa is still there. Still felt like calling her Kak Mel. Some old habits never seem to die. ;) KYS style.

Bye bye to Apple 4S and hello to my new S3!

I hope the girls starts their work soon, imma be bored over the weekend! Eyes glares at all of you. You know who you are! o_O

Smokes and ____

smokes and sleep will make my day,
shroud me with eternal haze.
for every breath i take,
I take it with much ado.

A bullet right through my head

Or perhaps a comet, either one would be great right now.

I'm sad

AMA paper is today and boy do I hate semester 1's material... ='[

Listening to Shiga Lin's I'm still loving you.

A very nostalgic feeling, I do miss those moments.

Here's to the end and the start of a new beginning.

*yadda yadda*

I don't want this to end!

Un-needed Help

I know giving someone help is a good thing, especially when they refuse the help when they are in need of it. But sometimes a forceful help isn't helping, its hurting them.

You are robbing them of their own freedom, or their initiative to be independent. 

I believe that if people who are intelligent, would seek help when they need it. 

Is it too much to ask for to be left alone so I could gather my thoughts?

吳雨霏《我本人》

='] 每个人都有一个地方。

au revoir et adie..

Cause every time I think I about you,

I think about pain,

I remember every single word you say,

Like deja vu, you said we're through,

And now that's all I think about when I think about you,

And it burns

And it burns

-Jason Chen-

If I have to chase you for and fight for your attention, eventually I won't want it any more 

-Will Smith-

Sounds like a quitter, but a stubborn person is someone who knows not when to quit. =] My head aches, my heart stings, and my eyes drop tears.

Its a season worth living for, a season worth remembering, and definitely a season that should not be repeated.

Feel like this~

Listening to soundtracks makes me feel so calm these days. Even when I'm under lots of stress, it still feels like its gonna sort itself out in the end.

Just a bit of crescendo to get me going <3

愛してる

I remember the time when I was afraid to say I Love You, so I gather my courage and said 愛してる instead. To me, those 4 words are the most meaningful to me when said in Japanese.

Its better than I love you, aku cinta padamu, ngo oi le, wo ai ni and even to its near counterpart , koishiteru.

It has a deep meaning to me. =']

Dreams

It was a weird one, but I was dying to know what happen next. Funny thing happens when you are dreaming.

Can't recall much of it but I remember being selected as a representative for this surviving competition. 6 v 6. The rules is simple, you have to move and complete a certain route and while you are doing so, you are free to eliminate anyone from the opposition team, or from your own team.

*Warning 'cruelty' post* ahead of you.

It started with me running, like literally running through bolders of rocks in a cave. We were being chased by creatures, I can't really define what they are or so. On top of that, the cave was caving in. So its either being crushed by the rocks or getting devoured by those 'creatures'. Not a fancy sight either way. It seems people around me are dying in the most gruel some way ever, being crushed by the creatures or having their spines broken into two by the stalactites that keep falling down and being pushed over and landing on some of the stalagmites. Bloods were everywhere.

I finally arrive at the the checkpoint. It was a tall watch tower like post with ropes dangling from it. You were suppose to climb your way to the top. Not really helpful when you have those creatures jumping towards you and the stalactites falling down. I had to fend off some of them with my fist as well as swing my rope to avoid the rocks. 

After that we arrive at what looked like a guard post, bridge like place. We were separated by a door and it seems the participants from the opposition team has just arrived. I walked past this one dude and he gave me a grin. Something fell down on the floor and a girl pick it up, blowing and cleaning it like its her precious thing. She asked, should she ignore it or keep it. The dude next to me say keep it and she did. 

Moments later she dropped dead and through some microscopic visions [dreams don't make sense at this point], some microscopic insect/bacteria manage to crept into her via the thing she picked up and killed her. The guy next to me smirk, and I look around. There seem to be more than 6 people at this point but some keep dropping dead, like someone was still thinning the crowd. 

At last it stopped and an announcement was made. Your next task is to go through the door on the right and reach the checkpoint at the end of the cave.

Great, another run and kill event. Seems like I've been doing this a lot. I've just got that feeling. I started to run. The same images kept flashing again. Creatures spawned again and were chasing us, caves caving in. Only this time it was dark with a slight hint of light. My eyesight was blurred, I trip and fell. I can fell that the creatures jump past me, chasing their targets in front of me.

A girl jumped down from above and spoke to me. You can't die, we are the resistance. She shouted to one of her friends and an immerse source of light lit the place. *Imagine a light orb, but huge on going towards that direction*. Follow the light, we need to get out of here.

And then I woke up.

Weird dream, I wanted to continue it, but alas it didn't happen. Still figuring out why the hell did I dream of something like that. =/

-Untitled-

Oso was lying down by the stream, next to the Falls of Azgeroth. He was day dreaming around, with a bark chew on his mouth, looking upwards at the skies of Artia. He seems at ease but little does anyone know the trouble thats been troubling his mind since the ethereal blast that occur at Mount Zyna two weeks ago.

"Mazbeth is pretty late, don't you think Snoffet?", Oso asked Snoffet, his trusty . Snoffet just chitter a bit, and moves a bit closer to Oso, bit by bit till he finally curl himself around Oso's neck.

The tree hustle a bit, as if the wind of Artia agreed with Oso. Mazbeth was a like a kin to Oso, or more so, like a brother in blade. the two of the train in the art of jinki-jutsu, which was divided into two specialism. The way of the reverse sword, which Mazbeth had mastered in, and the way of the ninkita, a dual scythe that Oso favoured.

A soft whistle blew from across the banks, and Oso moved forwards to find the source of the whistle. As he was getting nearer to the river, a hand taps his shoulder from behind. Oso turned around to look but there was no one there. Another hand taps his shoulder, once again from his back.

'Kanaritsu...' Oso muttered.

His eyes glowed in red and he turned around.

'Now , now Mazbeth. You can turn off you stealth move now. We got a more serious matter to attend to. You can go annoy Shindo instead, whenever you find her. God bless her soul. She should really settle down and get married someday instead of travelling around dueling her blade.

Mazbeth remove his cloak and reveil himself at Oso. His eyes glow green, with blue flashing in from time to time. He raised his reverse sword and lunge it forward. Oso took a quick jump backwards but it was too late to dodge the attack. He parried the attack with his ninkita.

'Mazbeth, why you....'

Sadly Oso could never finish his sentence. An arrow struck his chest from the back. Oso stabbed his ninkita into the ground, trying to balance his fall from the attack. Blood was gushing out from his chest. The arrow has struck to near to his heart, and he could feel like his strength slowly draining away from him. He was losing blood quickly and his vision has started to blur.

'Maz.....' he managed to mutter. As his vision faded away, all he could see was Mazbeth face, grinning. Something was peculiar about Mazbeth, his eyes.. they were still alternating between green and blue.

Mazbeth's eyes were lime green, it was never blue. Something is really wrong here.

Valentines Day

Its been a long while but I still find this video cute =P. Happy Valentines Day everyone or to the singles *looks at self* Happy Forever Alone Day

Forever Alone ='[

Tsk.... Just joking, Pyin Nie and Nich told me its not Forever Alone's Day, its Together Alone's Day! xD

But anyway, I've always spend it alone far far away so it doesn't matter. I never had the 'traditional valentines date' or what so ever. Will be cool to try it but I'm content with what I have now. You ain't gonna miss it if you don't know anything about it aite?

However having said that, not being with you doesn't mean I don't love you. We don't have to be together for love to exist. I know tis is true and for that I'm happy. =]

I don't want to hold on to someone, giving a probably false home. I felt that it was nasty back then, so I don't want to do the same to other. So on this day, cheers to you.

PS: Finally gotten to know the girl in the brown trench coats name ^^" Suspense moves on

Unsure

These days I tend to ignore people. I feel so bad about it that I had to let it go. Sorry there =[. Just couldn't stand the pain of taking someone for granted. Its totally unfair and I don't thing people deserve it.

Though somewhere along those lines, I seem to be of more interest in certain people.

=.= Don't know this is selective attention  or what. Darn it, I might as well go back to university work.

Had a belated CNY Dinner with the Girls at Hans Dynasty, Hotpot/Steamboat buffet £16.99 per person. Nice place but I get bored of buffet quickly.

Pyin Nie and Nich, Jaq had to leave earlier cause she was going off to London.

Stop by at Wong Wong to get my Lou Poh Peng before heading back to Pyin Nie's apartment. Forgot to eat it though so Pyin Nie had it for breakfast today xD. Red Cliff was on Tv so we end up watching it. Pyin Nie was ranting on how much scenes they cut for the english version of it [Part I and II combined together].

Lovely commentators though =P. We know what they are thinking. After all Great Minds think ALIKE!

Anyway regarding the picture above, Nich was playing with Siri and ask that question. Pyin Nie was laughing at it =]. Sometimes Siri can be just tad amazing. *Looks at Raj*  

Oh and this? Sloopy Joe! been wanting to cook it but been procrastinating it for a very long while. Since when you may ask? Well since 13 when I first saw it on Disney Channel. 

I'm like, 'WTH is that?'

Must try it one day. Well one thing ticked off from my to-do-list ^^

PS: One lesson I've learnt is watch the damn freaking movie first before you bring a girl to the cinema. =.= I thought Girl with the Dragon Tattoo was suitable for a girl. Boy was I wrong ! Still wish I could have watched an action movie instead... things never could go wrong with it =].

Might as well write this since I'm still flipping

Maybe its stressed, maybe its the repetitive annoyance.

So sick and tired of the two of you telling me that I'm doing an easy course when compare to the two of you. To be honest, I would dare say that if I put the two of you in my course, you would go nuts over it as it is definitely not your cup of tea.

And so what if you have consecutive papers? So what if I'm a bit tad relax when compare to you before exams. I simply just don't want to panic and screw my brains over as I think better when I'm calm.

And if I am relax, it means i'm pretty much confident of my abilities for the paper. I revise more than enough throughout the entire semester, and most of them are easily recallable as I read them almost everyday.

Just because I don't show it does not mean that I am not stress, or worry or taking anything lightly.

I just don't want to burden any of you with my problems. You have enough of your own, you don't need any of mine.

Trust them when they say Introduction to basic Accounting... they really do mean the basic like 1 + 1 =2 or 10. And if you think that is easy, that is because they are meant to be easy. What I've studied more is more than that and if you don't know the inside and out of a subject, please don't compare it to yours.

I have a thousand ways to put my foot on your course, and believe me, they aren't nice. So don't dare me. I'm serious.

Radio, CNY and Series!

I think exam periods are one of the best and worst of all time. Its so stressful that you have limited time for revision, and no matter how much you try to cram, it just won't go in.

I've learnt it through my years of secondary schooling, colleges and the first two years in uni; Cramming is suicidal. ;P Trust me it does. So what are my methods then?

I still do my usual 're-write all my notes before exams' tradition. Its easier for me to read [my own handwriting, its simplify and well of course I read them as I write]. The important key that I've learnt to change, is after every few topics, try to find something interesting, link them with the topic you know and ask yourself some questions. I would often sidetrack to do minor research, read up on things and do further research.

Sidetracking is a dangerous business, but once you understand it beyond the lectures, it gets really darn easy to memorize and apply during the exams.

=] Try it! it works like a charm!

Sidetracking, Lin Lee introduced me to OneFM. I normally listen to HitzFm but since I'm craving for more chinese songs, have to improve my banana like chinese hehe. I'm getting better at Mandarin but I'm sensing that my Cantonese and Hokkien had deteriorate. ='[ This is bad! They are quite funny and I like the songs selection. A mixture of old and new with a twist of english here and there.

Only sad part is that they are playing too much CNY songs! RAWR! OMG I miss home so much. Had a Facetime earlier this morning as sis just bought herself an Iphone 4S as well. Hehe, now mummy wants one as well. Funny to see home cause the Phone is obviously so portable. Gives me a different feeling that a skype video session. =] I like this one more~

Series! Well de-stress/break/foodie time often equates to watching the tele or my lappy. In this case I've been watching HIMYM/TBBT but it wasn't enough. SO BBC iPlayer to the rescue. I've discovered Sherlock Holmes, brilliant show. =p He notices all the small things but of course aren't bothered by mundane human interactions. Somehow, I got a soft spot for this. =]

Pyin Nie and I swapped series. After Audit we went to Nero to have our cuppa coffee. Pyin Nie and I were all having abnormal sleeping patterns. Could say our body clock went cuckoo. ;]. Pyin Nie had valid reasons of course, she was jet-lagged. I on the other hand, none.

So I have gotten her to watch Sherlock Holmes, and in return she has gotten me to watch Hustle. Mind you, I was more merciful as Sherlock Holmes only had 2 seasons with 3 episodes each. Hustle on the other hand, is on series 8. @.@ Kill me please. Its a funny series though. About con man doing what they do best, conning people.





Got one by Jac though, The Secret Circle. I haven't started on that yet but will do soon, I hope. After I'm done with all these bloody papers.

Okay, toodle loo for now ;)

I wonder

If new year resolutions are any good. Mine has always been the same, i.e 'The same resolution I made last year~'

To be honest I wanted to do something like 'down memory lane' when 2011 was about to end, but I guess I was too carried away with present obligations for that.

So this is a tiny wee bit of update.

I'm currently 'cramming' for my exams which starts on the 17th.

*Achoo*, bless my own soul. =]

那些年

Exams is around the corner! I don't want to look back and say 那些年, 如果我做了不同的事情。

Therefore I'm gonna study study study till my brain burst =D

Jiayou everyone and good luck! FD is a bitch, I know ;) But we are better than it!